all i could say is sorry

14th January 2010

Thursday

Supposedly to be my off day

But I still worked today

And my day was, just okay? I guess

In the morning

Sucks

Not a lot but still sucked a little

Lol

Then I went to Pavilion's Maxis

Gotta pay my phone bill

What the hell

Urgh

Never mind

I've gotta get used to that already now that I'm working and becoming a grown-up

All this while my mum used to pay the bills for me

But I guess I really gotta start doing that myself

With my own hard-earned money

That was a start, at least

And maybe I'll learn to be more thrifty?

Hmm

Hope so

I don't wanna be judged as a spoilt brat

And so there I was

Waited for so long

The queue I mean

And then there was this couple if not mistaken

Foreigners

They wanted to apply for a Sim card

And then a lady attended to them

And then these 3 people in front of me all turned around and just watched them

I was like, duh? never seen foreigners before?

And even wanna listen to their conversation and watch them

I was like, what?

LOL

Ignore me

I am so not in the mood right now

Sorry

Then not only my own phone bill

But also paid my aunt's one

With my own money

Urgh

Just used 100 bucks for phone bill today

Sucks

Never mind

Not complaining

The more I give, the more I'll receive

Yes, I believe, God

Then went to work after that

Since he hadn't replied me yet

So I assumed his phone wasn't with him anymore

And then Andy missed call me

LOL

So late only find me

Told him bout 'him' and whatever

So not in the mood to talk about what I thought was kinda nice but maybe it was just me being too troublesome or whatever

Who cares

Maybe when you do something that you think is nice then what you get back in return was people being ungrateful to what you did

Whatever

Then during lunch

I passed by Pepper Lunch or whater that shop is called

I remembered there was the word Pepper

And I forgot about the next word

Lol

But no sign on Huei Ling

And then I gotta actually follow a girl wearing MOF shirt to actually locate MOF

LOL

As though I know where it was

Anyway

I passed by there too

And didn't see Pauline or Pui Yeng

Hmm

Never mind

And guess what?

I lost the Padini's Off Duty tag!

OMG!

Shit man

Totally

I was like, what the hell?!

Then after I went back, I told Asrol

And he was like, aiyo! kena bayar oh!

Haha

And then told Helmi

He also said the same thing

Ala, jokingly la

Then told Heng

She said never mind, just leave it inside first

Hee

Continued work

Oh yeah

Before that

My shift today was 2pm-10pm

Yeah, more noon shifts to come

Seriously

I checked my schedule

Urgh

I like morning better

I won't have to miss so many movie series and can be home earlier

Hmm

But never mind

Training myself to be stronger and more persistent!

Yeah

I can do it

By God's grace

Thank God

=)

During the last few hours of work this evening

It wasn't that good

Not that it was bad

But, still kinda, not-so-good

I dunno

I was kinda disturbed?

I mean like, what happened this morning

And then I wasn't so in the mood you know

Hmm

I dunno

Yeah, it was my own problem

My own freaking foolish, childish problem

Totally my fault

Whatever

Don't feel like talking in details about my work today

Hmm

I'm just sorry

For whatever I said

You know it's not true

But if you think what I said was true to myself, then I can't help it

If you wanna think that way

I'm just sorry okay?

For the way I spoke to you

My words and everything

I'm just sorry

I just dunno how can you just forget about what happened this morning and treat as though nothing happened

Or maybe that was good actually?

And I'm the only one that caused the problem

Or maybe I was the problem itself?

Screw me

Not worth it to you

Sorry

I'm sorry

=(

xoxo