a year ago, and a year later

285.


<3


So I'm officially 19 now. No, that's not a joke and yes, it's the truth. See how fast time flies? That's why I dread it to be over so soon! But nonetheless, it was a terrific day of celebration after all.


Thinking that maybe you might forget about it, but you didn't. You remembered. And I was glad. I am glad. =')


Seems so much that we've been through. 
A year ago and a year later. 
On this very special day.
I would not trade it for anything else.
Just a simple thank you.
Yet it holds such deep meanings that none could penetrate and fathom.
All the little mistakes I have committed,
All comes down to nothing, compared to what you've done.




And if I continue, I'll really have no idea what in the world I'm blabbering about. 
So, I'll stop. ;P

A year ago, I requested to drive. And a year later, I still insisted on that. ;D

Oh yeah, we watched Insidious. Well, just too bad we couldn't make it for Pirates 4 because I really really really wanted to watch it together. And sorry for the slight temperamental moment after that. =/

Synopsis: The creators of Saw and Paranormal Activity team up to reinvent the haunted-house genre for a new generation with Insidious. Renais (Rose Byrne) and her husband Josh (Patrick Wilson) are still unpacking boxes in their family's new home when she first senses a sinister presence. Eerie events steadily escalate into supernatural attacks, until one day their oldest son slips into a mysterious coma. Renais and Josh abandon their ghost-ridden home and attempt to heal their broken family, turning to an unorthodox expert in supernatural occurrences (Lin Shaye). They soon discover: It's not the house that's haunted. 

(Source: Golden Screen Cinemas)

It was super scary! Okay, not that scary to the extent I needed that exclamation mark but really, it was pretty nerve-wrecking. I mean, it's from the makers of Saw and Paranormal Activity right, so you really gotta expect some seriously freaky moments. But I guess you have to give them credits for what they've done with this movie though. Still, I really do not fancy a single bit the part where it shows the title of the movie along with its soundtrack.


Yes, this. *points below*





Honestly, that is so NOT needed! At least for me. Uh-uh, no no.


Nonetheless, go watch it. ;D

Your chosen piece of cake. Good thing we only got one for both of us. I never have thought that we were having such digestion difficulty at that point of time. But that place is awesome! Not Viva, but this cafe. And the boss/manager was soooooo friendly! Awh, I regretted not having asked him to help take a picture of us. =(

I like the cake. ;D

Thank you. =)

FINALLY! <3

;D

Second round. And I thought I could have at least a half hour nap or something but clearly my body has to work non-stop on that day. Thank God! ;D

No sooner had I propped myself onto my lovely comfy bed did mum said we would go for a movie. And IDK where in the world I managed to muster all that strength to shout for Pirates 4 at that time. ;D

So yeah, went off like almost immediately for Viva. Told you second round, didn't I? I was just there an hour ago! *blank faced* Anyway, I think I started to feel a little off colour already by then but, it's Pirates 4! <3 Must GO! ;D

I didn't know the skull was that outta proportion in this shot. ;P

Yes, finally too! A picture with mum! <3

And what do you know, there's a first time for everything. Yes, I mean EVERYTHING. I meant camwhoring in front of mum. ;P

Synopsis: Produced by Jerry Bruckheimer and directed by Rob Marshall, "Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides" captures the fun, adventure and humor that ignited the hit franchise - this time in Disney Digital 3D™. Johnny Depp returns to his iconic role of Captain Jack Sparrow in an action-packed tale of truth, betrayal, youth and demise. When Jack crosses paths with a woman from his past (Penelope Cruz), he's not sure if it's love - or if she's a ruthless con artist who's using him to find the fabled Fountain of Youth. When she forces him aboard the Queen Anne's Revenge, the ship of the formidable pirate Blackbeard (Ian McShane), Jack finds himself on an unexpected adventure in which he doesn't know who to fear more: Blackbeard or the woman from his past.

(Source: Walt Disney Studios Motion Pictures)

Jerry Bruckheimer! ;D He's just awesome with Pirates. Um yeah, that's where I got to know of him. ;P 

Some people say it's an awesome movie, some say it's just, blah. And the review I read in the papers was not that good either. BUT I STILL WANNA WATCH IT! ;D

Well, not to be a spoiler or what but it's not as good as the previous installments. Yes, there're quite a number of new faces. Yes, it's a whole new storyline. Yes, it's Pirates. Yes, it's JACK SPARROW! Oops, Captain Jack Sparrow. ;D But still, there's still the realization of a missing gap as you watch it, if you've been as crazy as me over the Pirates series. <3

There's no more the usual trio. Jack, Will and Elizabeth. And that's one of the major disappointment. I wish they were back with Jack in this installment though. If the trio will be back in the next one, if there is going to be any, I WOULD DEFINITELY WATCH IT! Not that I won't if they're not. ;P

Anyway, the storyline is, kinda dangling. What happened to Syrena and Philip? He became a merman or what? And the blossoming love between them? And wow, those mermaids are super gorgeous! And yes, the not-sure-whether-love-or-not infatuation between Jack and Angelica. SO CUTEEEEE!!! <3 And really, there's really a lot of focus directed towards these two and Jack is soooooooo gentleman and a thumbs-up boyfie. ;D

Gosh, he's awesome. ;D

I got to watch the movies I wanted. I got to spend precious time with the people I love. I got to take time off for myself and you. I got to take pictures? ;) Oh yes, and I got the privilege to be treated a piece of cake! Just blissful. <3

I couldn't have asked for more.

And at the end of the day, it's not big parties that I need. It's not heaps after heaps of presents that do the magic, although it helps. ;P 

Thank you for everything. I'm sorry but I just love the present wrapper. No, seriously! ;P And what a gift! I never would have expected that anyhow. But of course I do love it. I'll definitely read it, maybe after all the assignments impatiently waiting for me? ;D

THANK YOUUUUU! <3

285 is <3.

waiting for the end

You know that feeling when you know that something is gonna pass and come to an end eventually but still hoping against hope that the end wouldn't come so fast?

It may not be something major or some life-changing events. 

But somehow, you just refuse to let it bypass you.

And it'll just be another memory you store in your mind.

Then I saw my desktop's theme. 

And I saw a post on Facebook.

Final Minutes Of Last Harry Potter Movie To Be Split Into Seven Separate Films

And maybe what we thought is coming to an end is actually not. 

But still. It's the feeling that you wish you wouldn't have to feel. The awareness that you wish you would be innocent enough to not to have thought of it. The hope that you cling on to until the very last moment until it finally comes and you just have to accept the fact.

I guess all we can do is to just hope for the best to turn out and accept it as it hits us. 

It would not be such a bad thing after all, I guess.

=)

PS. I really do hope Harry Potter series wouldn't end. <3

the Gemini within

It's really true, you know. Exam week and you'll be like a snack machine, automatically refraining from healthy food. Or maybe because healthy food seem so distant and non-reachable. Seriously.

And for 3 days straight I've been drinking coffee. Pretty soon I'm sure to get hooked on it man. But I really really want to try the coffee powder I bought from Ipoh. So much thanks to Chloe's boyfie. ;P

Like mum said, "The whole car smelt of the coffee's aroma."

True? No? Maybe it's right though. 

You know, I've often thought of myself to be someone strong. Or more like I expected myself to be. But when some things happen, you just seem to be defeated by the fact that you're not as tough as you thought you were. And that thought, scares me. It does. Because that makes you feel even more vulnerable and weak. And that's the last thing that I want in me. I'm not saying that I want to be a superwoman or what but really, given all that has happened for the past decade, I should have expected more of myself. I just wish I could be more in control and patient though. It's not easy, I know. Cause I tried, and I'm still trying.

IwillprovepeoplewrongbecauseIwanttoprovemyselfright.

souvenir from the heart

Mum's back! ;D

And she bought me this bag! I love it sooooo much! ;D 

I guess I'll start having a collection of such bags. Seems so, carefree? Just like a traveler. 

Gee, I can come up with the most random word ever that doesn't even match!

Messy? Maybe not. Wait till Finals and I guess it'll be much worse.

Anyhow, I literally studied nothing for the entire day. NOTHING. Guilty much? A little, perhaps. Not because I chose not to study but because some really nonsensical stuff happened and it really really pissed me off so much. Well, I guess it hurt more than it pissed me.

I really wish that when I say I do not want to be affected and do not want to care anymore, I could really do so. It can definitely save me all the pain and unnecessary energy wastage and misery and all negative energy impounded on me. Urgh, get rid of them man!

Sigh. I still have lots to learn. Patience will be the number one thing now. =/

because i tell myself it's worth it

HAHAHAHAHA. Severus Snape! ;D

Gee, don't you feel just like that when all you seem to be doing is just bury yourself in books? Oh well, like I did for the past week. And it's surely gonna linger on until I'm done with all my assignments. They're like, piling up so high I can barely breathe anymore.

Econs. It really does have the power of transporting me back into the days where I sat for hours practicing Add Maths. Yup, good old time.

Sigh. Now that I think of it, I really do miss Add Maths. No, really. And all the science subjects, not so much of Physics though. Till this day, I still have not fully understood the um...never mind. 

Yeah, that's what holding me back. Till today.

When the heart is willing to love, it will find a thousand ways. But when a heart is unwilling, it will find a thousand excuses.

Believemewhenisayido.

there she goes!

Ahh, beaches! My favourite! <3

But I'm not the one who's gonna enjoy it this time. 

So happen to be my lucky mum. She's heading to Phuket tonight and won't be back till Sunday. =(

I'll miss her though. And I'm gonna be having dinner alone until next week. So sad.

But still, have a safe flight, safe trip and please be extra safe. Love you! ;D

at least out loud, i won't say i'm in love

I had another random thought just now. 

Someday, I should just sit under the rain and let it pour on me. Provided there's not lightning.

And after I've been soaked, I shall walk to the nearest McD and have ice-cream and curly fries. Or maybe hot milo. ;D

I really think we should try it. =)

Life's too short to miss out on such things. That's why I believe small kids know how to appreciate such nature and fun than we grown ups do. I'm not a grown up yet by the way. So I really think I should do it. Anyone up for it? ;D

You and me. Together under the rain? I'll take care of you if you fall sick later on. But we could at least give it a try first? ;D

i think of you, you know that?

That's why I still keep old messages. =) At least when I read them, I know that everything is worth it. To me, it is and it will be. <3

You are. =)

Though it has not been easy, I guess it have never been really easy for us. But it's really worth it. Sorry for all my flaws, sorry you have to bear with it. I'm trying to make things right too. Maybe I'm doing it wrongly or maybe I don't even know how to make things right. But I just want you to know that, after all that we've been through, it's too much for me to lose.

=]

you are not them

So I had a random thought yesterday.

Imagine all the cockroaches are thrown into the ocean and the sharks eat them.

=D

Wouldn't that be great? There would be no more cockroaches in the world and as Michelle said, people wouldn't be so cruel to sharks anymore because people will not be eating shark fins already! ;D 

And also, the sharks might just turn into a herbivore and maybe we can all swim with the sharks and the ocean would not be such a dangerous place after all! =)

Marine biologists should give that a try. Really, I'm serious weh! ;D

jack

So I watched Pirates 3 Friday night. Friday the 13th. Woah. ;P

Salute him kao kao weh!

Fell in love with him since I first watched Pirates 1. ;D

He's awesomely awesome. ;D

And I was thinking, Orlando Bloom and Keira Knightly SHOULD star in this 4th sequel! How can they not be in? I mean, look how far the three of them have come since the first Pirates in IDK which year. Also, I've actually gave a thought about the continuation of the storyline if Will Turner and Elizabeth Swann are in. ;D

I think, there should be a way in which Turner does not have to die by having someone stab his heart just to free him or having to stay 10 years on board and 1 day on shore. That's why, I think there should be a way in which he can be freed and he can be together with Elizabeth. Don't you think? ;D

Anyway, regardless of whether Will and Elizabeth are in this 4th sequel or not, I am still gonna watch it! ;D You bet I will. If there's Johnny Depp, then it's definitely worth watching! ;D

19th May, release date. Oh goshhh, I CAN'T WAITTTT WEHHHH!!!

Mr Winston should have given one of Pirates movie for the review. And no doubt I'll pick that! ;D

"Did no one come to save me just because they miss me?" -Captain Jack Sparrow

irreplaceable, one and only

If you ever thought that you can live without your mum, you're wrong. If  I were to live without my mum, I can never have come this far. I don't think I'm even that strong. With mum around, everything just seems easier.

And though I don't say this often, I love you, mum. <3

I know I've been a difficult kid to you ever since reaching teenage years. I've been naughty. I've been rebellious. I've been ungrateful sometimes. I've been rude, more than sometimes. I've been disobedient. I've been stubborn. I've not been the best daughter I should have been.

I know I shouldn't be the best girl to you only on this special day, but to all days as well. I'm still trying and I'm still learning. But believe me, I am grateful to have you as my mother. Because I wouldn't trade you for any other people. Not now, not ever. And although after all this while, I may not have improved a lot behaviour-wise, I am thankful that you have bear with me until now.

All that I've done, all that I've decided, was only to reduce your burden. They may have been done incorrectly and unwisely but my intention is just as good. I hope you understand. But even if you don't, it's alright. That doesn't matter as much as your advices to me. Thank you.

I love you, mum. =]

To all mothers out there and especially to my one and only precious mum,

Happy Mother's Day. =)