you made it count

18th February 2010

Thursday

Do you know how it feels like when you do something for people and they don't appreciate it?

Do you know if your reactions to what someone had done for you would hurt that doer?

Do you know that the person who did it for you would feel hurt?

It feels not only hurt, but unappreciated

Which is why to me, the word 'unappreciated' doesn't exist for nothing

Why?

Cause I just felt it tonight

I mean, I guess there were times when I've done something with good intentions for other people but they thought it would be better off we did not do it

And not even mentioning without them saying a 'thank you'

For tonight, I did something for someone

I had actually wanted to buy the short pants for my brother

My eldest brother that is

Knowing that it is so difficult now to get those rubber short pants without any strings or buckles or whatever

And now that I found one at the store I myself am working at

So why not buy it?

So I bought it today

Due to Azrul's pushing on me for him to help me buy it using his credit card because according to him, he does not want to withdraw money

LOL

So I said okay and he bought it today

So it was like, paying back my money la

I helped him buy his sweater that day using my own money what

And so today he paid me back by paying for the short pants

Get it?

So finally I bought it

I showed my mum straight away when I got into the car

She said she likes it

That was something good at least

Well, that makes you feel what you've done worth it

At least I felt so

But then, when I came home and found that my grandparents were still awake as they were actually gonna go out for supper I guess?

So I showed the pants to my grandpa

I explained that the string could be taken out so that it will be fully stretchable because with the string, the stretchability of the rubber at the waistline is limited by the very own string itself

Anyone still following me?

LOL
Haha

Anyway

I told him that and he was like, the total opposite

And he even said it might be a little loose

So I said if it would be a little loose then just tie a knot with the string when he wears it la

And I dunno was it my mum or him who suggested to exchange it to a smaller size for my younger brother

Man, that was so hurting to me okay?

I bought it specially for my eldest brother

Not that I didn't wanna buy for my younger brother or I was just being biased or something

Not even close to that okay?

Just that, I bought it for him and I want it to be his and the reason I showed you is because I thought you would approve of it and maybe compliment on the goodness and quality of the pants

But none

Urgh

Whatever

Which is why I say, sometimes I guess I'm just unappreciated

=(

Screw me

PS. I sat beside my eldest brother on his bed when he was going to sleep. I said 'good night' to him. He was facing the wall at that moment. And a little while after I said that to him, he turned to me and said, 'good night'. I guess that word totally made my purchase of the pants worth it! I almost cried out. I dunno why. Maybe it reminded me of something. Or I dunno what is it exactly. And to be honest, I almost cried just moments ago when I just typed that I cried. God bless him.

xoxo