somewhere in between

8th February 2010

Monday

I feel so accomplished this morning

Well, at least a little

=)

The thing is, I actually obeyed my mum without any grumblings

I wiped my room's windows and the door frames!

How obedient I was!

Haha

Seriously

After I bathe, I wiped the windows and door frames and that was still 8+ in the morning

Close to 9am

I thought of calling him after my shower

But I thought it was still early and might as well let him sleep longer

Duh, half an hour still counts okay?

LOL

Anyway

When I called him at 9am, he was still in bed

And talk about me being the one who always sleeps

Yeah right

So he said he 'might not be going for badminton'

Okay then

I asked him to go back to sleep while I go online first

And I was outta the house at 11am or so

I couldn't remember

Went to Cempaka and man, I was earlier than him

And Andy was with him too

And I thought Andy had to work

Spoilt brat!

=)

I seemed to spend every of my off day at his place

LOL

Is that a good thing or not?

I seriously dunno

I mean like, I've not been home for the whole day in a long time already

And now, frankly speaking, I think I would definitely feel bored if I am to stay at home for the whole day doing nothing but just online

Seriously

Damn serious about it

Screw me

I feel so different now

The total opposite of how I used to be

And today wasn't any different

I spent almost the whole day at his house again

I dunno

Maybe I love it there

I think I do

And the closer I am towards his family, the more distant I become from my own family

=(

I guess I'm not that a good girl after all

Hmm

I have no comment on this

Undeniably true as well?

Urgh

To be perfectly honest

Sometimes I'm afraid we're going too far

As in, when we're alone together

I don't wanna go that far

I need to have a limit

And I do have a limit

I need you to respect that too

Please

Don't make it look like simply just lust

Cause it's really the last thing I ever want it to be

=(

I watched 90210 at his house today

When he was upstairs busy gaming

Dota?

Urgh

What is so nice about Dota man???

Seriously

Boys and games, they can never be apart can they?

And I dunno what season this 90210 is man

What's more, I even stopped following 90210 on 8tv every Wednesday as I have to work and by the time I'm home, the movie's finished already

LOL

And I've been missing so many movies already now that I've started working

And I guess I now know why my mum used to say she's not interested in movies

I don't think it is really because of no interest in movies but because there's just no time for movies which makes her assume to herself that she is not interested in movie

I dunno if that makes any sense to you but for me, hmm, at least I an understand it for myself

=)

And I received another message today

Saying that my Maxis bill is now overdue

I mean, what the hell?!

I thought I just paid it like, few weeks back?

Damn it man!

Now that I've started working, I even have to pay for my phone bills

Urgh

Being an adult is so not easy and so not a good thing

How nice if we don't have to use money or maybe there won't be money in this world and then we could just get anything and everyting we want just like that

Urgh

The world is becoming so complicated now

I dunno where this comes from, but I have no idea if this has any teeny connection to do with money and paying bills myself

LOL

Phone bills

Driving licence

College fees

College stuff

What else man?

And in case no one noticed it, I haven't had enough to go for my own shopping man

Urgh

Screw it

Whatever

And being an adult is to give utmost priority to the basic needs first

Now I know

I wish I don't

But I do

And I have to understand this principle

Fine

I'm learning and adapting to it though

Really

God help me please

It's nearing middle of February now

And not even having my Undang test yet

What is going with my life man?!

Urgh

No words to express what I'm going through right now

Stopping here

PS. Nerd.

PPS. Don't go too far please.

xoxo