day off blues

28th February 2010

Sunday

Hmm, I guess I'm just plain bored here right now

Seriously, it's my off day and I won't be working until another week passes

And what will I be doing?

I used to look forward to my off days

Every single off day that I would get

No doubt I already know that my off days were gonna be great

But now, I dunno if I should really be looking forward to it

Whatever

xoxo

hoping against hope

28th February 2010

Sunday

Do I seem like I'm hoping against hope?

Hoping for something that would never ever happen?

Well, at least not that high a percentage of happening?

But I just have to believe right?

That's what it's all about?

Or fate?

Man, I don't even know if I really do believe in fate

Seriously

Hmm, or maybe to me, fate is blessing

I guess so

*wink*

So the thing is

Now I have officially (well, not really officially), stop working temporarily

Not on weekdays anymore but only on weekends

And the main concern is, I won't even have another chance to see him if he visits PCS (Padini Concept Store) again

=(

Hopefully we could meet some time later

Like, weekends?

*wink!!!*

And I guess I'm just hopelessly plain crazy

Well, I always have right?

LOL

Gosh, I walked almost the whole of Pav during break yesterday just to have a faint hope of bumping into him

Haha

Yeah, I know, it was like what people call, looking for a needle in a haystack

Something like that

I don't exactly remember it okay?

Just, something that sounds like that la

Duh?

Haha

Damn, I can't believe I'm not gonna work anymore

I mean, for weekdays

And what now?

I'm so lost right now

=(

God help me

xoxo

he awaits

27th February 2010

Saturday

I had a great day

Well, apart from that nuisance and annoying and irritating and sorry to say fcked-up guy, my day was terrific!

Why am I so pissed?

Damn, I was pissed and I still am

The thing is, I was just returning from the toilet and was just about to enter Padini's right entrance

The one near to Stage (staffs are not allowed to use the other entrance wearing uniform)

So I was just there, and these 2 Malay guys were passing by me

The one nearer to me really got on my nerve man!

Firstly, he was staring at me with his so-uncool-but-he-thinks-they're-cool eyes

I caught a glance at his stupid stare and rolled my eyes

It was a sign of annoyance!

Totally!

Fine

I mean, why should I even bother to show any sign that I care?

But then, the next second, he snapped a finger at me!

Get me right, he SNAPPED a finger at me!

At that moment, all I wanted to say to his idiotic face was, "FCK OFF!"

Seriously, I just didn't like it okay?

Don't think you are that freaking cool!

You are so not, okay?

Stop meddling with me

You will totally regret it

I just hate it when people like YOU do such STUPID thing

You think all girls like that?

Then you're so pathetically WRONG!

Remember that, I AM NOT YOUR GIRL!

I WILL NEVER BE!

AND I WON"T WANNA BE!

FCK OFF!

Okay, I was pissed

I'm sorry for my vulgarities

Oops, apology accepted?

=)

I was not in a good mood at that time

And now this jerk still wanna add up my bad mood

Get lost okay?

You don't even deserve a minute of my time

I sound arrogant to you?

Good, then just get outta my sight!

*patient*

OMG

Okay, enough of that

I am so not gonna let that spoil my good mood coming on the way

*wink*

But I'm still not finished yet

You know I posted that cute guy thing I saw yesterday at Facebook

And Justin commented on it

And today when I punched in, Justin and Heng and Kelly and Si Wei were at the locker room as well

So as soon as I entered, Justin was like giving me that I-know-what-you-posted-on-Facebook look

LOL

So I was smilling?

I mean, what could I do?

Then he started telling about my post at Facebook and also since Heng was there, she also told my cerita of that cute guy

LOL

And then Justin started asking me questions like, "Was he wearing sports shoes yesterday?", "With black socks?", "And a tee shirt?", "Has long eyebrows?"

And I said, "I didn't really notice.", He was wearing a black tee.", "He has big eyes."

And you know what he said then???

"Yalah, it's him la! He always come here with his girlfriend

Aww

I was feeling like One Republic's All The Right Moves' lyrics

"So yeah we're going down..."

Yeah, I was so going down man

So totally

=/

Haha

Okay, bear with me now, cause I also can't believe I'm saying this

But for reasons that I myself do not know of, I was suddenly hoping that he would come again today!

Hahahaha

Screw me!

LOL

I forgot what I was doing but then suddenly I noticed a gang of friends at Vincci Accessories

And there's this guy that looked vaguely familiar but yet, I dunno?

LOL

And then guess what?

He was wearing a PDI shirt!

And when I saw that, I was like, omg!

He really came?!?!?!?!

My prayer was answered?

Haha

Thank God

I dunno, maybe it felt good too

*wink*

And I just remembered that he bought a PDI tee yesterday!

And when I thought long enough, it struck me that he tried 2 tees and finally took the green stripes one!

I guess so

Too melted to notice?

Haha

Screw me!

LOL

Whatever

Screw all that

The thing is, he came!

And he was at PCS!

OMG!

You don't have to tell me I'm excessively self-conscious right now because I do realise that myself

*wink*

But the thing is, I thought I saw him looking at PA counter for awhile

I mean, he was at Vincci Accessories, and then he went to Vincci, without even coming to PA

=(

Hee

But I guess I was just staring dreamily at him all that while

=)

I really thought that he did look to PA counter for a few seconds and then he went into Vincci

Okay, fine

Maybe he was just looking at his friend or something

Or maybe he was just window-shopping and looking at shoes?

LOL

But Vincci are for girls!

Right???

LOL

And then Heng was looking with me also

LOL

(why so many LOL??? LOL)

And then, when they were almost on their way out, she told me that she might know who his girlfriend is

Just a wild guess, duh

I guess?

Hee

Okay, too much information?

Fine, I'll just keep it to myself

=)

Thank you God!

=)

I'm going gaga over him!

Haha

Spare me

=)

*at least there's still the static*

And also, I served a customer

A Singaporean

Don't really wanna elaborate any further cause I am actually feeling my heavy eyelids weighing down on me right now

LOL

But the good thing was, I got my very first compliment from her, that is, she said this to me

"Very good service."

At the very instant once she said it, I never felt better since serving customers for 2 months

LOL

It really made me feel appreciated

At least someone still cares to say it!

Will continue maybe tomorrow

If I feel like it

=)

Outta here

So sleepy right now

Byee!

=)

PS. Cute guy! *wink*

xoxo

hey, didn't need you anyway *wink*

27th February 2010

Saturday

Brie Larson - Life After You

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I've been on a roller coaster since you said we were over

Cause you didn't want to be tied down

I felt like a loser, wasted and used

So scared to move without you around

I thought I was gonna die, turns out I survived

Hey, didn't need you anyway

I get better every day

Don't you think it's funny how it all works out

Yeah, I've finally got a life I go on every night

Now I've got so much to say, so much to do

This is life, life after you

I've been on a roller coaster since you said we were over

I'm finally back to being me

I don't have to say I'm sorry

I'm the last one at the party

I don't ever think I've felt so free

I guess I should be thanking you for this brand new attitude

Hey, didn't need you anyway

I'm getting better every day

Don't you think it's funny how it all works out

Yeah, I've finally got a life

I go on every night

Now I've got so much to say, so much to do

This is life, life after you

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Hey, didn't need you anyway

I'm getting better every day

Don't you think it's funny how it all works out

Yeah, I've finally got a life

I go on every night

Now I've got so much to say, so much to do

This is life, life after you

This is life, life after you

*********************************

I love the lyrics so so so much!

I can really use some of that right now

Or maybe, all of that!

*wink*

Get a grip, Claira!

=)

xoxo

don't tell me i will make it on my own

27th February 2010

Saturday

Secondhand Serenade - Stay Close, Don't Go

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I'm staring at the glass in front of me,

Is it half empty?

Have I ruined all you've given me?

I know I've been selfish,

I know I've been foolish,

But look through that and you will see,

That I'll do better.

I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone,

Don't tell me I will make it on my own.

Don't leave me tonight,

This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,

If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,

I listen to your breathing,

Amazed how I somehow managed to,

Sweep you off of your feet girl,

Your perfect little feet girl,

I took for granted what you do,

But I'll do better.

I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone,

Don't tell me I will make it on my own.

Don't leave me tonight,

This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,

If you leave me tonight.

And don't you know,

My heart is pumping,

Oh, it's putting up the fight.

And I've got this feeling,

That everything's alright.

Don't you see?

I'm not the only one for you,

But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone.

[Chorus]

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone,

Don't tell me I will make it on my own.

Don't leave me tonight,

This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,

If you leave me tonight.

Don't leave me tonight.

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I like the chorus a lot

*wink*

"If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone, don't tell me I will make it on my own..."

xoxo

prove it!

26th February 2010

Friday

Copied from an email sent by a friend

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45 things a girl wants but wont ask for

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweat shirts.

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together. And don't ignore her.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

26. DON'T lie to her

27. DON'T cheat on her!!!

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school} and how much you MISS her.

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her)

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even joking or act like you're mad.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DIS her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.(ONLY IF YOU MEAN IT)

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you cancuddle.

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible(MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED)

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.

45. If you break up but still like her, don't act like a jerk. be a man and do something about it.

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I dare not claim it all to be true for everyone

But, what the hell, maybe it is true though

Duh?

xoxo

gaga ooh la la

26th February 2010

Friday

I am so in a good mood

Okay, firstly, I got a surprise visit from Ben!

Damn, it's been so long since I last saw him!

Miss talking to him so much!

Haha

Well, it wasn't really that surprising actually

I was told yesterday that he would come and visit me today

But I was surprised that he actually came at 11+ in the morning!

LOL

Come on, admit it, you're so not a morning person okay?

Haha

And so true was I

All just because your brother woke you up

Or else I guess you won't be here so early right?

*wink*

And honestly, did you really wanna buy new clothes or were you just buying PA clothes just because I work there?

Cause if it's the latter one then I really do feel terribly bad man

Like, more to guilty?

Seriously!!!

But thanks all the same

That could at least help us be closer to our monthly target

=)

And had lunch with Ben too!

Duh, wasted so much time going down to Food Republic and then finally up to Wong Kok

All his fault okay?

I told him to decide earlier where to eat, duh

*wink*

So according to his comment at Facebook yesterday, he has loads of questions to ask me

And so, another Q & A session with him which eventually became a come-clean session

LOL

And I really wasn't trying to change topic or what okay?

That mayonnaise really has some problem!

The taste was so weird!

DUH?!

Haha

Had a lunch treat from him as well!

Duh, eating with you is like that?

Then I will not eat with you anymore!

Haha

*Just joking. That is so not gonna happen!*

Damn, my mood was so damn good today

Most probably due to that really really really really really really really really really really really cuteeee guy I saw at Padini Concept Store!

Man, he was damn freaking effing cute!

OMG

It was like this, I was on duty at the fitting room

And there he came, wanting to try a PA pants

OMG

And he was speaking English to me

And he was so soft-spoken

*melting in progress*

*wink*

Interception : The reason I used the phrase 'melting in progress' is due to the frequent observance of Haagen Daez's (how the hell you spell Haagen Daez?!) chocolate orange ice-cream poster right in front of Lot 10

Back to melting in progress

And then, he said he'll think about the pants

Okay, and I told him about our PA promotion

Damn, he was smiling at me

Wee!!!~~~

LOL

I'm going crazy now

Stop me

*wink*

Then later, he came back and asked for the pants he tried earlier on

And then after awhile, he came back wanting to try 2 pieces of PDI tee

OMG

And he asked me if I could help him get L size for both the tees

And when he said 'thank you', I was going O-M-G

Heng told me, "Calm down."

Azrul said, "Gatal."

I said to myself, "He is so damn cute."

Haha

=)

Urgh

Wishing the impossible right now

Haha

And also, I got another surprise visit from Li Ping!

With someone, ahem

Duh, not a guy but what the hell, she'll understand what I'm saying

Haha

Cute cute cute cute cute!

*wink*

Thinking of finding a day out with Ben only!

Dude, jom teman aku shopping!

LOL

BFF sounds good to you?

=)

Thanks mate!

xoxo

IMY

25th February 2010

Thursday

All of a sudden when I was at work just now

I was feeling unexceptionally abnormal

That is, IMY, a lot

3 more days to March

What could I be expecting from you?

I have no idea

The thought just freaks me out

And I'm outta here

xoxo

dead drop tired

25th February 2010

Thursday

Is it because my period is coming or my body is lack of nutrients?

Why am I feeling so exhausted?

Exhausted is so not the word

I am so worn out!!!

=(

Seriously man

I fell asleep in my mum's car on the way home, as usual

But this time, I did not even realise I've reached home already and I was still sleeping

I was so tired I could barely move man

=/

It was when my mum opened the door only I was awaken

Screw me

Damn it, I still need to get up early tomorrow morning

I'm having morning shift tomorrow

Just hope that I would be able to get up at 7am

Hmm, you won't be there to be my wake up call anymore

God help me pleaseeeee

*wink*

And I will definitely talk to my pillow and ask her to wake me up tomorrow *Edward's secret method to waking up early*

=)

Counting down now

2 more days and I won't be working on weekdays anymore

xoxo

someone get me out, i'm stuck!

25th February 2010

Thursday

Shit!

I am so indecisive right now!

Screw me!

One second I was sure to go to HELP

And the next second I thought of going to UCSI

LOL me!

But whatever

I think I'll just go to HELP and ask the councellors or whoever that could help me right now

Well, help is what they offer to us right?

LOL

What's more, I just checked UCSI's website and they're gonna have an open day this weekend

Just nice, I'll be off on Sunday

And I guess I will go to the open day

Oh shit!

I'm screwed this time again

I can't watch Valentine's Day!

Haha

So if my plan goes on fine, then Sunday I'll go to UCSI open day and then Monday or the following week I'll just find a day to HELP

I don't wanna go alone

Someone come with me!!!

Haha

=)

Okay, maybe I'll ask wai seng

Or maybe pui sing?

But she's learning driving right?

Aww, screw me

Khye vern?

Start working on Monday

LOL

Man, I am so damn confused with you, khye vern

Now when people wanna stop work and you pulak just starting to work

But never mind

You're going into the baking business anyway right?

All the best then!

Siapa lagi mau pergi dengan aku?

*wink*

=)

I am so indecisive right now!!!

HELP ME!!!

Just to be fair, UCSI ME!!!

LOL

I so need you right now

=)

xoxo

10 days ago, it was still different

25th February 2010

Thursday

Okay, yeah well, this movie was out like, a week ago?

On the first day of CNY was it?

But I still wanna watch it!

Duh?!

*wink*

Looks like some kinda romantic comedy

And omg, so many great actors and actresses!

Man, my next off day?

This Sunday

Cool, maybe I can make time to watch it!

Watching movies alone is not that pathetic I guess?

Whatever

xoxo

don't wake me up

24th February 2010

Wednesday

I feel so sleepy right now

In fact, I guess I've been feeling so sleepy just now when I was on my way home after work

I fell asleep in the car

And almost could have continued to sleep in the car if it was possible

Cause I was too tired

=/

I didn't wanna wake up

How nice if I'm still a baby or a little girl

Then I could just continue to sleep and let my mum carry me to bed

LOL

I was hungry

But exhaustion came before anything else

Tiredness KO-ed hunger

Alright

Enough

I'm going to bed now

xoxo

i got it! i got it!

24th February 2010

Wednesday

Okay, firstly, I have no intention of adding those FTW, LOL, WTF, FML, NO WAI! in the first place

=)

Seriously, I was just searching for pictures at flickr that would look anything like OMG

But I got more than I asked for

So, why not?

*wink*

So the thing is, I just checked the routes and public transport and whatever to HELP University College

Well, I suppose I'll be going there

As in, having my college life at HELP

Oh me God

HELP me!

=)

And guess what?

If I'm not mistaken

I've gotta change transport THRICE before I reach HELP

Seriously, I need HELP right now

The first one, Ampang line LRT to Masjid Jamek

Then, Kelana Jaya line to Bangsar

And from Bangsar, take RapidKL bus T634

And that is only until Menara Mellinium

And from there, I still have to walk inside to HELP

This is really the disadvantage of not getting my driving licence earlier

But, what the hell

Even if I got my driving licence and could drive to college everyday, then it will be my brother's turn to take public transpor

Hmm, whatever

If so, might as well I take public transport and spare him from taking public transport as well

Never mind

I guess it'll help me to be a more KL-lite

You know, getting around KL with ease!

Geez, I like the sound of that!

=)

Oh yeah!

I still haven't checked the routes to PJ Community Library

Hang on

BRB

LOL

Okay

I'm back!

So, if not mistaken *second time saying*, I've also gotta take Ampang Line to Masjid Jamek and then change to Kelana Jaya line to Bangsar and then interchange to U75

Either that or I can straight away take B105 or B110 to Bangsar and then change to U75

Hang on, if so, that means going to HELP also can board these buses right?

I mean, don't have to take LRT and then change to Kelana Jaya

Hmm, so let's say I take a B105 or B110 bus from Jusco Maluri and then I'll disembark at Bangsar and then change to U75

Cool!

I've figured it out!

Umm, a simplified version now

From Jusco Maluri, take B105/B110 to Bangsar then change to U75 to both Menara Mellinium and PJ Community Library

Okay, anyone interested of joining me?

=)

I'll ask wai seng!

Jom, let's go to HELP next week!

=)

xoxo

5

23rd February 2010

Tuesday

My hair feels so soft through my fingers

*This is crap. Bear with me*

=)

It's just that, I think I slipped out something about work in my last post

The thing is

Look at my shift for the next few days!

Here!

24/2 : 2pm-10pm

25/2 : 1pm-10pm (noon)

26/2 : 10am-6pm

27/2 : 2pm-10pm

28/2 : OFF!

28/2, the 15th day of the Lunar Calender right?

And considered like, the end of CNY celebration?

Er, yeah, I guess so

So, conclusion is

Give me more angpaos before 28th February!!!

Mind you, I'm not forcing, just, asking

=)

I love me hair!

=)

xoxo

a second, a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month

23rd February 2010

Tuesday

Today is the 23rd of February

And barely a week to go till the end of February

And I would be 'stopping' work by the end of this month

'Stopping' as in I won't be working on weekdays but only on weekends

Hmm, I guess it will be so different from now

I've gotta get ready with all the registration for college and application for both loans and scholarships

Man, this is all happening so fast

Or not?

I was given 3 months' time!

LOL

Spare me!

Haha

God bless me

I pray that either one of my applications will be approved

Time is ticking

College life will be starting

Everything will be so different

Human resisit changes

Maybe because changes seem terrifying

Cause it does to me

So here I am

Counting down to the days when I will not be going to Pav Padini so often

I guess I'm gonna miss my colleagus so much

Especially Edward!

And he won't be coming back to Pav until April!

=(

He's my colleague, my mentor and a friend

Seriously, I've learnt a lot from him

And also, he's partly my brother

Cause he told me he treats me like his little sister

How nice is that!

I've always wanted that kinda protection from an elder brother

But I'm not suggesting I don't appreciate my own brother

I love him with all my heart

God be with him

And Fong

Heng

Bee Yen

Azrul!!! (will really miss this sangap!) *wink*

Mira

And I just started being close to Eve *like her!*

Dean

Mira (PDI)

Eyka!!! *kuih lapis*

Amir

Kelly

And some Padini staff which I still don't know their names!

Haha

And Justin

And Jacob

And I will miss them so much

=(

Duh?!

Do I sound like I won't be continuing work at Padini?

LOL!

Screw me

Anyway

It's better to say earlier than not say at all

Who knows if I'll have the chance to say all these later on?

I guess I'm starting to love my colleagues a lot now

=)

God bless them

xoxo

you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around

23rd February 2010

Tuesday

Okay, yet another current obsession of mine

Bear with me

The songs I listen to are usually so worth listening!

Haha

*perasan*

=)

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I've never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Till you open the door

There's so much more I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly

But I couldn't find wings

Then you came along

And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

Spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier,

Crazier, crazier

Watched from a distance as you

Made life your own

Every sky was your own kind of blue

And I wanted to know

How that would feel

And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see

Opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground

Spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier,

Crazier, crazier, oh

Baby, you showed me what living is for

I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier,

Crazier, crazier

Crazier, crazier

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I especially like this part

'You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier'

xoxo