Friday, December 31, 2010

the job of an usher



Strangely, it doesn't feel the least bit like I'm welcoming a brand new year. I do not feel the rush of adrenaline that I think I should be feeling on the 31st December of every previous year. I am not that excited as I would used to. I had not thought of any plans to usher in the new year. No countdown or any such thoughts. It feels just the same.

But still, it's all about new beginning right? 

I guess the reason I'm feeling so different and so, um, you can call it indifferent if you want, is that I'm no longer in high school anymore. No more getting ready for the first day of school, wondering which teacher will be teaching you what and what. No more getting used to waking up early a week prior to school reopens. Stuff like that you know? Maybe because now that's I'm in college, everything is just different. 

Sometimes I surprise myself too.

I greet people Happy New Year without really feeling the enthusiasm it should have. When my mum asked us to do our New Year resolution, I'm afraid to say that I actually do not know what resolution that I want to achieve next year. All this while, my resolutions have been achieving straight As in exams and all academic-related aspirations. Not now, not this time. No idea what to expect, what to anticipate, what should I set for my resolution.

Oh well, not fretting or what. It's the end of the year and the start of another anyway. Just voicing out anything and everything. ;P

Anyway, Happy New Year 2011 people!




=)


Thursday, December 30, 2010

the turning point is surprising



Having a nice long talk with a friend is fun. =D

Oh yeah, spent almost the whole of today accompanying that birdie Lim Wei Ming to Times Square to get his spectacles done and then indulged ourselves in stories from each other for hours continuously in Vivo. Or was it Viva the pizza restaurant? I forgotten. Oops. xD


We should have more of such talks! =D


Things are just getting better now. =)




Tuesday, December 28, 2010

you never cared, i was never in


I find giving unrelated titles fun. ;P

Ohh well, definitely not a good start to the last week of 2010. 



Before 


After

I've always 'fancied' the yellow sterilize thingy, not until I have it on my own knee now.

Yeah well, mum insisted that I go to the clinic for a checkup. Not just because of the injury though. I um, kinda, sorta, blacked out for awhile this noon. Yikes, I never liked that feeling ever since the first time I've experienced that. 

Blood pressure, blood count, everything perfectly normal. Um, just a lil increment in white blood cells. And you know what, I guess I'm prone to gastritis now. =(

The doc said the wound is quite deep. And I wonder why did it turn black. Mum said it was congial something. Ahh, forgotten the term. I've been feeling so not myself for the whole day. Groggy and slow. Yes, slow. That's not something that a person like me ever wants. 

I really dislike menses. 

That's why I agree that, guys should never assume girls to be weak until they've experienced menstruation and pregnancy.

And idk if I've got enough time left to cram in all those HISTORY!


I need to feel some holiday mood. =(


Sunday, December 26, 2010

gleeful meaning


It just came to my mind that the song "Last Christmas" is highly relevant for me this Christmas. =)


Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special


<3




=)



everything happens for a reason



I've been awoken by the loud banging on my bedroom door just to ask me to fetch my uncle from Singapore from the KTM station. Gee, I wasn't even fully up yet man. Ahh, groggy, sleepy.

And I had a super long talk with my cousin bro, Jonathan. =)

It's been such a long time since we last met. Ahh the old times. =') He has grown so much taller! I almost mistaken him as my uncle. And I thought, why is my uncle so much younger? LOL

It really reminded me of the time we spent when we were little. When my uncle and his family came to our house during CNY and stayed for a few days. And I could still remember there was once when I even cried after they've gone back to Singapore. Pretty weird huh? And how innocent we were when we had fun together. Me, bro and Jonathan. 

I miss us.


Saturday, December 25, 2010

a Christmas story told


Happy Christmas everyone!

Something sounds unusual in that is it? Oh yes, people normally say Merry Christmas and not Happy Christmas. But, to those who have watched Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone would know that Ron greeted Harry "Happy Christmas".


Um, anyway, mum actually SUGGESTED and BROUGHT me and bro to Look Out Point to have our Christmas dinner. =) Yes, it was a surprise to me due to the fact that it was mum who warned me not to go there as she thought it was quite secluded and therefore dangerous for a girl my age. Saying me, very directly. And now you know why am I so surprise that she is now the one who said to go there. Surprise, surprise. 

I actually like proving people wrong. You can call it fun.

Super packed there and that proved me wrong instead. Ouch, backfired. Oh yeah, I 'assured' mum that it won't be so packed that fast and, urgh, screw it. 

Oh, the food, costly. Like, super super costly! Well if the food is delicious then I might say it is worth what it costs but it was the other way round. So really, we weren't that satisfied with the food but like mum said, she enjoyed the time spent. But, seriously, to me, I wouldn't say it is worth a single bit. Worse still, we didn't know, I mean, I didn't even know that parking uphill costs 3 bucks more than parking downhill. Dude, what's the matter man? Does anyone feel duped right now?

But one thing that we all agreed was nice was the hot lemon tea. *eye roll* Oh, and for me, maybe the mistiness which made me feel like I'm at Genting. ;D

But at the end of the day, we still thank God that we have the privilege to spend on such tidings. At least we are way more fortunate than others. Thank you dear God. =)



Pretty cool huh? It has a lighting function as well which makes it even cooler. And blame it on my business and forgetfulness *mostly*, I didn't manage to buy a Christmas gift to exchange with that. And I feel so awful. =( I know it isn't that necessary or needed but promise is a promise. And that's why I feel super guilty for not fulfilling that promise. I am so sorry. But nonetheless, thank you so much. =')




Happy Christmas everyone! 
Thank God for everything in life right now. Thank God for giving your son to save us from our sins. Thank God for Jesus Christ. I love You.





tidings of comfort and joy



You know, sometimes I tend to think that I can be quite matured for my age. Maybe because of the circumstances I've been put under or maybe because I'm just the way I am.

And there's a lot going on in my mind. Isn't it too much for an 18-year old to have to bear with all this? But what makes me think that I do not have to be responsible for my own future? Hey, I guess that's the reason for it. That I've all along been hit by the realization to be responsible for my own future, and thus, making plans and all.

I just pray to God to give me insight. To give me directions. To open ways for me.

And I pray that everything will just work out on its own even though it's not how I plan to be. God help me please.

I shall not think too much but live everyday as it is. Cause I believe in God. And in God I will have my strength. =)



Friday, December 24, 2010

tis the season to be jolly



It's the time of the year again. Gee, time flies doesn't it? This time last year, I had just finished my SPM. I just like saying it you know. =D

Oh, and it's Christmas time! =D
But honestly, I actually do not feel as hyper as I sound now. But of course, I love Christmas! Praise to God. =)

Maybe it's just, things have not been normal for the past week and that's when my mind starts being clogged with assumptions and thoughts that only I have the ability to let them breed in there. Get what I mean?

Paranoid.

And just when I find that parents can be paranoid- perhaps over paranoid at time-, I guess I'm no vast different from being that as well. 

Because it really scares me when things seem out of the ordinary and when absolute silence consumes us whole. And it does make me feel like I'm under the control of circumstances and not the other way round. If only girls wouldn't think that much or worry excessively and unnecessarily, I wouldn't succumb to this. I don't even want to be victim of  worrisome. 

But it's Christmas. Aren't we supposed to rejoice? It's the birth of Christ. I know I may not be a good and filial Christian, but I do very much believe and have faith in Christ. So it really is the perfect time to rejoice, be grateful and thankful and, praise the Lord. =')

Merry Christmas!


And it's the time when I enjoy Christmas carols the most. =D Ahhh, reminds me of the play "A Christmas Carol" last semester. =')


Sunday, December 19, 2010

right, doesn't mean right always


Right, guess I've been MIA for some seriously long time here. Jeez, when was the last time I blogged man?! Oh no, unacceptable! So anyway, I feel like my days are passing by, um, slowly. Idk, seriously. Lately, everyday just doesn't seem like the day itself. Maybe I've even lost count of the days.


Been feeling kinda off colour these couple of days. Maybe it was partly our faults, maybe I myself couldn't really get over it and just accept it as it. Maybe also because it's almost similar to something else, as in, some kinda metaphor thing? You know, that feeling when you want that day to be perfect and it just did until something crops up and spoils everything. That frustration just boils inside you know.

Or can I blame it on PMS?

Oh, and btw, I'm afraid to say that I might be fueling more interest in film studies/cinematography/anything to do with films and losing out in journalism. Oh yeah, frustration, disappointment and guilt then and now the fear and uncertainty. And you know what, I've been scouring the net for undergraduate course in film studies abroad. Not to mention another to be considered in financial wise. And when I start to fantasize about me studying abroad but restricted with this issue, I also ponder and sometimes envy those people my age who do not have to worry a single thing for their further education. Their parents have all the money that they needed to support their children's education. I mean, they really do not have to worry about anything at all! Seriously, I wonder what do they worry about man. And sometimes I just think, why are they so damn lucky but we have to go through all these just for our own education. But then again, elderly always say, especially mum, to be grateful for what we have; do not compare ourselves with those more fortunate/richer but if really want to, compare to those less fortunate. Well of course, it's damn easy to say but for a person with my age, it's not that easy. Hell, of course I want more with my life. I want an education abroad, I want to study what I have in mind. But things are just so difficult sometimes!

I guess all I can do is just pray to God and work my way there.


*sigh*


Life should be a hell lot easier than this.



Tuesday, December 7, 2010

make it through the rain


Oh, semester 2 have just begun. Yesterday. It was not really great for the first day. At least it wasn't, to me. We only had MMH i.e. Malaysia Media History for both lecture and tutorial. Haven't got the chance to meet our lecturer for ECS though. 

But I guess MMH was more than enough for me to bear with throughout the whole of second semester. 7 weeks, mid-sem exam after Christmas break and finals at the end of January. See how packed it is? And how awfully hectic? 6 tutorial questions already given to us for each of the coming week and honestly, I am still not quite sure whether this subject is about Media History or Malaysia History. Oh, and not to mention the assignments; one being a presentation and the other is a video presentation. Thank God there's only 2 assignments.

Now you know why it wasn't a good start.


But I'll survive. Yes, I will. I believe I will. God is with me. I believe. =)


Keeping my fingers crossed that I'll make it through this semester SAFELY.

Oh, gee, I guess this CNY will be the biggest relief that I shall be looking forward to throughout this semester.


Sunday, December 5, 2010

a resuming chapter


Holidays are gonna end at 2359 hours tonight. Semester 2 is gonna begin at 0800 hours tomorrow. Jeez, I still do not feel the enthusiasm for the beginning of a brand new semester. I wonder why.

I had some seriously weird dreams last night. 4 different dreams in total if I'm not mistaken. And one of them, is that, I went to New York alone on a free ticket. I told mum about it. ;)
Anyway, I guess my mind can't seem to take a break from all these after all. It just has to process something huh?

Oh, and I've been thinking of putting a bolster in my car. I know, this is totally random. But, I've really been thinking about it. I've been hugging my bolster a lot lately. And that explains my want for a bolster in my car. Can I?

Oh yes yes yes. This should be about my new semester tomorrow right? Hopefully I'll be able to wake up early tomorrow morning and not miss the class. Gee, I hope NOT. *touch wood*

So a brand new semester. All new subjects. New lecturers. New schedule. New stuff to do. New this, new that. Great.

It's gonna be hectic. A lot more busier starting tomorrow.
But it will be great. I believe it will. I'll hold onto the 4 principles above. ;)


God bless everyone. =)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

if only it's still puberty



Cookie Monster! =D

Oh no no no no no, this shouldn't be a gleeful post. It should be injected with guilt and remorse. Yes it should. Oh wait, should it? 

Jeez, I feel like I've bee3n stuffing myself with food lately. Like, LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of FOOD! SOS. Someone help me. I strongly need immediate assistance with my diet right now. Oh, why hadn't I thought of becoming a dietitian? That thought really did hit me a few days back. ;)

Pizza yesterday, Thai food today. *burp* I actually pity my digestive system. =( I should give it a break. A long break. Yikes, so much thanks to you with all the- though I hate to admit- good food. So I guess I should probably drag you along to help me lose some fats. Yikes.


*sigh* If only eating doesn't cost weight gain, how nice would that be.

Better get my ass off and start working out a plan. Oh, we need to jog. Oh, and I did not realize the park opposite my condo is that, um, natural? LOL. I shall jog. Oh boy, please make me do it. =(



Thursday, December 2, 2010

home alone for christmas


Home Alone is the perfect movie for this season. 
Ahh, I'm so in Christmas mood right now. =)


Oh, and sorry. I just fell in love with Kevin McCallister's cuteness. =D























Isn't he cute then? =)

Ahh, I miss watching Home Alone. I remember when I watched it with my bro years ago when we were still little, we got the idea of setting up so-called traps like those in the movie in our playroom. Um, failed though. =/


I'm gonna finish watching Home Alone 3 and 4, though many comments are negatives.
Still, Kevin McCallister! =)


Tuesday, November 30, 2010

i can see the perfect sky is torn

When you feel like everything is weighing down on you, all you want is just to break free.


I want to break free. If only 'everything' is contained in a fragile glass ball, I would smash it into pieces now.

*sigh*


God give me directions please. Give me insights to all these troubles impinging on me now. Please.



Monday, November 29, 2010

3. because it's today!


Today is special. 



Not much were done but the time spent was priceless. Thank you for everything. =)


29 November 2010



because i need directions



I've been thinking. It just came to me when I least expect it. Idk how it happened, or why it became such. I have the fear in me now. That feeling of uncertainty. That feeling of not knowing what will become of my future. And given the fact that the decision to be made is in my hands, everything becomes more daunting. 

I've really been thinking. And though it is frightening and terrifying to actually say it out, I'm afraid I might be losing interest in Journalism and favouring Broadcasting more. I myself am not entirely sure which is which that I really have a knack in.

Maybe because after the presentation I did for IMCOMM as the topic I did was Movies and Motion Pictures. Or maybe because of the incompetency I've started to feel. There are so many maybes and yet, I do not know which maybe that resulted in my current state. 

I'm confused. I'm uncertain. I have doubts. I am lost. So completely.

And I'm so sure that's not a good thing. Not a pleasant feeling at all.


I need new directions, that's why.


Saturday, November 27, 2010

the road not taken is the best traversed

So we went to the beach today. =)


It was later than planned. It was longer than expected. And definitely not as smooth as it could have been. Not forgetting the massive congestion after a KESAS toll where much later only did I realize we were at the highway in front of Summit USJ. Um, so I guess we were at USJ then. It was raining. So yeah, we thought the jam might have been caused by the pouring rain. But only after at least half an hour of bumper-to-bumper crawl, we came face to face with an overturned truck. 3 lane-ful of vehicles squeezing into a single lane. A failed move actually since they were mostly Malaysian drivers. ;P

Oh yes, it was Morib beach by the way. Morib Gold Coast. It was far from what I had expected. Clearly, I've yet to witness a crystal clear ocean with a clean white sandy beach. I still do long to go to all the beautiful beaches in Malaysia. =)

Thank you so much for the day. =)


The journey may be tiresome, the beach may not be as nice, but the company always makes up for it. =)


Thursday, November 25, 2010

the first of the last


I'm in good spirit, really really good one. I'm feeling hyper today!

The movie is about 2 hours ++. Lengthy ain't it? And boy was I freezing in the cinema. Teeth clattering, tingling feeling in my thigh muscles and losing senses in my fingers. I was numb. My bad for not bringing along the super comfy over-sized jacket-hoodie and for wearing short pants. Yes yes, my bad. =(

But it was not bad for the last installment though it could've been better. Speaking from a HP book reader and a fan's point of view, there were actually many parts that they've omitted from the movie. Oh well, even after they've excluded those scenes, the movie is still so long. Can't blame the producer though, he really did a great job. Toast to David Yates! =)


Ahh, you know at the start of the movie, when this logo appeared, it was truly a heart- wrenching moment. I mean, guys, it's Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows! It is the LAST and FINAL installment! Well, not entirely because of that though. It's just a genuine feeling that I could hardly describe through mere words. It's an experience. A journey you've walked through together with JK Rowling and the whole of Harry Potter's casts. A story that you've immersed yourself in since the moment you became connected in this magical adventure. Boy I could really go on and on talking about Harry Potter. And it's really really sad that it's finally coming to an end. After all these years of anticipating new installments, new characters, new battles between The Chosen One and The Dark Lord, everything's gonna end now. It's just so sad you know. And that explains this long-winded babbling thanks to the logo up there. ='(


It's Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. Okay peeps, I don't mean to be rude or sounding so arrogant but it's actually The Deathly HALLOWS, not HOLLOWS. No, seriously, I've heard many people pronouncing it as HOLLOWS when it should be HALLOWS. Even radio announcers okay??? *rolls eyes* Oh come on, it's like, the first part of the last installment already. Please please pleaseeeeee, Hallows? =)


Awhhh, see how they've grown. Ahhhhh *sighs* =')


I love her. I admire her. Hermione Granger, the brainy one. =)




They look like they're on a mission to kick some bad guy's ass, don't you think? ;)
The awesome trio.


Oh yes, how could we possibly forget The Dark Lord and his faithful Death Eaters. Oh yes! And Bellatrix Lestrange! Being Voldemort's lover. ;P
And you know what, someone said she is Medusa. For those who've watched Percy Jackson and The Clash of The Titans, you would surely remember that unique-looking and guy-killing lady. Erm, direct translation? ;P




This scene was pretty funny. And cute! Cute to Fleur. And Fred and George! Ahh, I just LOVE the twins. They are ever so funny. =D


She's ever that skillful and smart. =)


Oh yes. And that's the logo as the title implies. The Deathly Hallows.

The Elder Wand.
The Resurrection Stone.
The Invisibility Cloak.


This is nice. I love the effects so much. =)


Ahhh, Ron and Hermione. Seemed so unlikely when they were younger right? Oh well, that's always the sweetest one. Started off as enemies and ending up as lovers. I always adore such a form of love you know? If that's what it is. =)



Dobby! The free elf. =) 
He died because for Harry Potter. Indirectly. Had I not been so freezing cold causing me to lose full concentration in the movie, I would've shed a tear. Maybe.

Doesn't this look like they're dressed up for Christmas? Um, well, as a matter of fact, that particular day when they both visited Godric's Hollow, (this, you can pronounce it as HOLLOW cause it really is Hollow. ;P) it was actually Christmas Eve. A sad Christmas Eve though.




Seeing them caring for each other and secretly loving each other is truly amazing. =) Ron is funny and Hermione, ahhh, she can be bossy at times but they're just so funny! =D I love them!


Oh I love this, I love this, I love this! Fred is so funny! Oh wait, was it George? I think it's Fred. No wait, George. Ahhhh, whichever la! Both are equally hilarious. =D



Heart-wrenching ain't it? Truly heartfelt emotions. =')



Dude, see how they've grown??? I mean, look at it!


And here are several scenes from the movie.






And finally, have a look at the magical crew from the start to the end. Amazing and mesmerizing much eh? Just looking at all these happy and charming faces puts a smile to my face. Well, even for little Draco. He was mischievous but he grew outta it too in the end. =)

Oh yes, I do realize I've inserted more pictures than I should. Um, it's what they would call, yellow journalism? Sensationalism? Gee, Mr Winston would be so proud that I hadn't erased all of those even after my finals. ;P

Oh, and you know what? I know it might sound insane but, I guess I'm gonna have a second round of Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows tomorrow night. This time, with mum and bro. Oh, and I would definitely my comfy pink sweater and strictly NO short pants. It's Harry Potter, I wouldn't mind going for a second time you know. ;P

Oh! And I almost forgotten. The trailer! =D



=)


Alright, guess I'm gonna end here before I start rummaging for more pictures. 

So long, farewell!