time to crayonize

So, it's the final day of the year and just 2 hours and a half away from 2013. Ironic though; despite me saying that the year is ending very soon, I still do not quite feel the 'something' of this whole ending and beginning. Really, the reason I used 'something' is because I could not find the right word to describe what that something is. To say it's the 'feel', it does not really imply it. To say it's the 'atmosphere', I do not seem to think so because the word itself makes me think of celebration and my 'something' is not at all about the whole celebration thing. To say it's a form of 'reflection', it is still the more unlikely because, I don't know, reflection of this past year (not even past yet) does not seem to be so significant compared to previous years.

And therefore, I still could not find the perfect word to describe my meaning.

This 'something' could just be a combination of all, well, except for the celebration part. It's more like an impact, a force, something that strikes you hard that you'd go, 'Oh wow, it's the end of another year and a new one is dawning upon me.' That kind of 'something', you know.

Right, I'm talking Greek. 

But I think it is necessary that a degree of reflection on the entire year be done, though of course, this whole thing seems a little too cliche-ish. But still, I suppose it is the time of the year where people would just take a moment out of their busy schedules and think about all the things that they have done, the things that they have achieved, the things that they resolved to do in the year before, be it done or not, or perhaps some little, or huge mistakes that we wish for ever more not to have committed. 

People have always been talking about new year's resolution at this time of the year. This year's not exceptional either. My mum asks me about it, and my pastor does so to. Well, before I graduated from high school, my new year's resolution was surely all academic-oriented (not that it's not so now). You know, they were like, 'Oh, I wanna get straight As for SPM' and things like that. They were just that clear. I don't think they ever needed much more thought than from the surface. Then college years came, and suddenly everything felt like being through a total makeover. It even came to a point where I did not even know what my resolution should be. Everything could be so vague and so misty for awhile.

Sometimes it terrifies you, don't it?

At least it is so for me.

I think I am a person that is okay with uncertainty but when there is too much that I do not know of, perhaps that is where the worrying begins. 

I guess?

Why don't I have a close friend that studies psychology? Like really, I could have those personality or psychological (not to test mentally-related illnesses) tests for free. :P

New year's resolution was something that seems to be a 'must' last time. But not anymore for now.

Or I just don't feel the same.

When people ask me what is my new year's resolution for next year, I honestly could not answer this question. So please, understand my situation and don't ask. :P

That aside, I believe this year has been quite a fruitful year to me as well. Let's see, I got through two degree semesters this year without failing any subjects, or close to failing any (thank God for that). And though I may be a little anxious about this semester's performance, all I can do is just to hope for the best and have faith that God will bring me though. :)

What else? Oh, and I'm really proud and glad to say that I am now a true Christian. It's not that I did not believe previously; I just wasn't sure what I believed in and where I stood. Honestly, people used to ask me questions like, 'Are you a Christian?', 'Why do you have a Christian name but do not sit for the Chinese paper exam?', 'Do you celebrate CNY?' 

You know, I believe that there is this misconception living among us. Firstly, let me explain this: Not all Chinese students sit for the Chinese paper in PMR and SPM. Those who sit for the papers are usually Chinese-educated and that means, simply knowing how to speak Chinese doesn't mean you will have to sit for the exam. I know there may be people who do not understand this but I hate to admit that this question can be really irritating at times. You just get sick and tired of people asking this seemingly common knowledge.

Okay, vented. Apologies for any offence caused. :)

 

Ahh, Gi Kwang. :D

So back to the topic: I did not know how to answer such questions because I wasn't even sure if I was a Christian. But to keep it short, I am clear with myself now. I know I am a true Christian now and I know that my faith lies in Christ. :)

Oh by the way, I do celebrate CNY. Just for the record, in case you have those meant-for-short-lived thoughts of not giving angpaos to me. :P

This year also saw our friendship grew. Yes, growing doesn't necessarily mean everything is heading into a good direction. No, to me, I think that growth in friendship means having more understanding about the bonds that we form. This understanding may not stem from a positive source, it could be the cause of something unpleasant but still, it's because of such happenings that we come to see clearly who we are and who we fill our surroundings with. I think that's growth. :)

We had our fights and arguments, bickering and teases, cold wars and harsh comments and we saw each other's weakness. We also had our share of laughter and joy, playful times and moments, long hours of hard work together and most importantly, we seem to have turn those assignment struggling moments into a period of shared ups and downs. Oh yes, and added the Big Orange into our list of directory. I mean, seriously, by the end of our degree, we could just come out with our mini directory booklet, with the Big Orange and both the Paris towers as main emphasis.

Might as well include this achievement into our resume. :D

Lastly, one huge turnaround for me this year (as mentioned before), was my surprisingly new interest in Kpop. Oh damn, it sounds so unlike me just by mentioning it. Oh well, change that impression you have had of me before. :P

Ah yes, it's not just an interest now. I'm afraid to say that it has wrecked havoc within me and transformed into a much more wild and unrestrained fervour. Don't make me go into details, for I dare not think of how this would end. :P

Just know that: #G-dragon #bigbang #beast

Ah, what a year, really. We make history yet again. So who says only important people make history? We are history creators ourselves too. My, that leads me to say, who says we can't do great things too? :D

Isn't it amazing when inspiration comes flooding into your mind in the midst of blogging? Yes, just perfect. :)

Nonetheless, 

HAPPY 2013 all! :)

here to stay

There's an announcement/declaration to be done. One that has affected my life ever since. One that has changed my mindset and perception completely. One that is not only shocking to myself but also to those who know me pretty well.

Several weeks back, MAMA was held in Hong Kong and so happened, my curiosity was piqued and instinctively, I tuned into the live broadcast of the award ceremony. What was more surprising was that I actually stayed in front of the TV for the full three-hour plus despite not knowing many of the performers and artistes. Although my reluctance was quite strong, I still had to admit that my heart was longing so much for Big Bang's performance. Well yeah, I've heard a lot about them and not to mention I'm always in the presence of someone who is crazily into them. So yeah, I was equally excited and anxious about them coming on to the stage, because after so many other performances, there was still no sight of them. But when they finally did come out, woah, I was totally blown off my feet.

You just have to admit they are the ones who are capable of bringing the place down. :D

That night opened up my eyes to another level. I've heard songs that I quite like and immediately the day after, I searched for them as well as re-watching all the performances during that ceremony. But there was one particular song that interested me so freaking much that I guess this group had then become my favourite obsession of all. :)

You know, those who knew me would surely be surprised by this sudden change in me. Gee, I'm making it sound like I've been a pretty stubborn person in music taste. Perhaps I am? I don't know, maybe not? :P

Kpop has been one of my biggest resistance and rejection all this while. It wasn't that I disliked or anti-ed them, I just didn't want to be wholly affected and influenced by the Korean wave. 

Too bad I am now. :P

Yes, I here now declare that I am into Kpop and I am wholly in love with Beast and Big Bang. The fangirl mode in back in me, and it has returned with much greater impact and enthusiasm. You know those reactions of fantasizing a relationship with artistes? Um yeah, that's pretty much the extent of my fervour now. I'm sure one day I'm gonna meet Hyun Seung and G-Dragon. They're the cutest and most beautiful persons ever alive. Oh gosh.

Hyun Seung and Gi Kwang- personal favourites of Beast. :D

Oh my.

He's the loveliest guy ever. <3 font="font">

Alright, that's about it. 

Thought of dying my hair red too. Should I? :)

#hyunseung #g-dragon #beast #bigbang #forever

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if sky was ever the limit

You know, the world was 'supposed' to end 3 days ago. All those Mayan prophecies and what-nots. They got the whole world talking about it and from the news that I have read, some people actually went to the extend of building a bullet-looking container that was said to be able to fit up to 60 people, with a basin and toilet within.

I'm not being cynical or what, but really, if a doomsday really happens, nothing can prevent it from happening. All these are out of our capabilities. It's supernatural forces that we are seeing, only God can do this and no one will know what God's plans are.

Anyway, that aside, I find it quite a wonder with all the posts on Facebook on the supposed doomsday itself. Yes, of course, it's the time of the year where most students like us have our final examinations and assignments and any-academic related business any university could think of of giving their poor students. But really, just because of exams, I see posts that wish for the end of the world to happen just so they would not have to undergo those tenuous moments.

I guess sometimes, people can be so, I don't know, hard to please? No, I'm not excluding myself from this too. I just wouldn't wish for the world to end to trade for an exemption from exams. :P

I mean, really, imagine if the world really ended and what would people be posting about it? (Considering we all have hours left to do our last minute Facebook postings or tweets and not to mention time for us to prepare ourselves- if that ever helps) I bet there would be posts like, 'I wish the world would not end today. I have yet to finish my exam.' I mean, why not? :P

But things like these may be a little good for our brain though. It's during such seemingly hopeless situations that our brain really begin to function like the engines of Jenson Button's race track machine. And then you start to have thoughts about the things that you have accomplished in your life, the things that you would want to do if more time were given to you or maybe the things that you would really regret not doing. I guess at some point in our lives, those thoughts will spring into our minds. And those are the times that our decisions would be most drastic, I guess?

I have yet to explore enough of the world, so for the world to end at this time is definitely a big no-no. Besides, who are we to decide when the world should end since we are only His creations? Don't the Creator Himself has the full right to his creations? :)

So let us not worry about the unknown, for He will take full care of it. If we live in Him, we will have His peace. That's how it should be. No more man-made arks unless instructed.

Just have faith in Him and there's no need for more worries. :)

festive bells in the air

Hellooooooo peepsssss!

Oh yes, I'm back.

Tons of apologies for the extremely long and should-not-be absence. It was not deliberate, I promise you. So much for this semester's hectic schedule and endless assignments one after another. They just never end, do they? Well, at least not until the final week of the semester.

Still, my third semester has officially ended and the holidays are here! That's all that we all need to know for now. :D

The finals was pretty difficult to be honest. Out of the five papers, CRF was the one that I was more assured of. The other four, oh well, it's best I do not go into the details.

Also, we celebrated Christmas yesterday! It was actually my very first time celebrating Christmas like that. When it comes to Christmas, most people will think of feasting, presents, movies, gifts and snow. But this year's meaning has changed for me. This year has been one truly enlightening year. I am proud to say that I am now a frequent church-goer and a true believer in Christ. Everything has been really good this year. :)

The performance that we put on went on pretty smooth too, despite the increasingly fast heartbeat that I suffered from as each second passed by until the time when I were to give my testimony. Terrifyingly nerve-wrecking experience. 

To all friends and people who celebrate Christmas worldwide, have a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! :D

It's the day to celebrate the birth of our Saviour! :D

a calling from the heart

There are many things that we want in life. Money, I guess, would be most people's top list. Education, especially in poverty countries and those who do not have the privilege to receive free education just like we do (Not really free though). Fame, perhaps, for those who seek glorious reputation and to have a legacy to imprint on the society for years, or centuries to come. That's true, all souls living on this earth have things that they openly declare their want and also things that they secretly long for, knowing the bumps and lumps ahead may just be more than any one person can simply handle.

I am no different, really. I do have many wants in life. Not all are known to people. I mean, you really need to keep some secrets to yourself, isn't it? Or else, where would all the fun be? :)

Sometimes I do envy people who have the added advantage and means to do what they love to do. It is not the mere determination or perseverance I'm talking about. Those, I believe I do not deprive myself of. Well, we do need that confidence speaking once in awhile, don't we all? :)

Of course, I am well aware that I should not be envious or long for something that others have that I don't. Okay, that just makes me sound so ungrateful. 

My bad. :P

I love Peyton. Man, I mean, I've always loved her ever since my obsession on One Tree Hill began. :)

I think it's just the same as that. You, I mean, we all have to grab every opportunity that presents itself to us to do the things that we want to do. Yeah, not everyone is lucky as the son of a rich manager or the princess-like daughter of a loving parent that is willing to fork out every single penny for her travelling expenses all around the world. No, not everyone is as lucky as that and not everyone has that means. I don't, for one, which is why I said I would sometimes envy these people. It isn't right and fair to judge and to come to a quick conclusion that these people are free to spend whatever dollar that they can with a swish on their wallet-filled credit cards, I know that. 

But there is something else that I know too. Although for the time being, I may not have the ability or privilege to just go full on ahead and do the things that I would really give up my time to do, it doesn't mean that's the end of it. Perhaps, the time is just not right. Yet that doesn't deter me from continue to want and to work my sweat off for it. Just believe and have faith that the day will come when you, and I, can truly support ourselves to do all the things that we have wished to do.

My to-do-list is still going strong, and still counting and taking on more things. Well, they may not be done within this couple of years but you know what they say, expect the unexpected. I always love unplanned and unexpected stuff, they're the best feelings that one can ever get. Well, at least for me.

Hehehh, this is cute. :)

And I still think I'd prefer sky diving over bungee jump. AT LEAST FOR NOW. :D

when the leaves are brown and the sky is grey

You know, I was reading an article on Huffington Post yesterday about how happy people are and what can unhappy people do to become like them. Now if you come to think of it, it can be quite ridiculous yet ironic. Of course, an article like that is a useful and perhaps helpful one to some people. But that's not how I saw it.

What was the impetus that triggered the need for such a study by scientists? Why was there even a need to see how happy people actually are? What was implanted in these brilliant minds to note that people are unhappy and that they need help to become happy? Really, is it just me or that the world seems to becoming a pretty depressing place to live in?

Alright, or maybe it is not the place. Maybe it is the things that occupy these spaces. Maybe it is the things that surround the occupants. Maybe it is the things that have never stopped growing in numbers ever since humanization that continue to blind people from the sheer and simple meaning of being happy. Yes, simply being happy.

It seems to me that people nowadays do not find happiness in what they do. Perhaps they feel forced in doing what they do. I don't know, it could just be as simple as not finding the meaning in all that people do now. They do what they don't like and they don't do what they like. And then they say it's the circumstances that push them to such a decision. It is not as easy as it's said. It is not as simple to just switch to a job that you like. It is not so carefree to just ditch all your responsibilities and take the next flight to Los Angeles, or New York or Yellowstone to spend the night staring hard into the lonely starry night.

And why are all the places named are from the States?

Jeez.

They say happiness is in your mind.

(They did, didn't they? I'm sure they somehow did. :P)

And they say quotes are the words of truth. 

(Well, I said it. It still counts.)

Surely, I am not implying that I am always a happy-go-lucky person or someone that can easily shrug off all the depressing thoughts and don a new coat of smiley faces and jumpy mood. No, everyone has the ups and downs in life and so do I. And even though you may have endless problems hitting hard against your door doesn't mean that your problems are bigger and more important than mine, or anyone else's for that matter.

All I am pointing out is that, we need to realize how saddening the people of these days are becoming (sometimes myself included). But let's not gt defeated by it. God has made us way tougher and stronger than to be knocked down by the things that He gave us power over. It is not easy, nobody says it is. But really, if you lose happiness, you lose everything else. Because only when you find happiness in what you do, you find meaning, you find joy, you find hope and you do it with love and passion and sincerity and all that matters to you.

Take a plunge.

Shut the eyes and drown out the darkness.

The next time you open them, welcome only the light and happiness.

It's still a beautiful world. :)

the meaning in waiting

Right, so here I am, returning to this private refuge of mine after such a long drought of updates. I know, it's me, it's all totally my bad. I can't even remember what was the last thing I talked about and I don't even remember how long I have chucked this blog away. But you see, in the end, I always come back to the place where words are better typed than spoken.

It is true.

Mid Valley is having a Nikon exhibition/roadshow sort of thing and this is just like an early Christmas gift to me. Only that it is just a gift to the eyes and not physical enough for me to have it in my possession. Not mine to buy, not mine to have it (yet).

One of the reason I never stopped this part-time job was because of this- Nikon. You can judge me all you want, but that's the least of my concerns. Really. Yes, I do not deny that the trend is getting a lot more cliche and how hypocritical I would seem to be for I used to judge others in the same negative light. I believe in working hard for what I truly want. Of course, sometimes you get a little sponsors here and there. But have you really thought about how different it would make you feel when you finally own something that you have worked your ass off for?

It is the satisfaction and the sheer sense of accomplishment that cannot be obtained or achieved if your efforts are not more than half of what that something is worth.

I visited this Nikon exhibit right away after my work. People were crowding over each and ever available space and I could not even get any nearer to the counters even when I have circled the entire enclosure. But what good would it do me even if I could get my hands all over on D5100 and taking random shots from it? Reality hits, and it hits hard. I was totally aware, and I am that no matter how close I am to these adorable gadgets, I do not have that means to really negotiate for an agreeable price and actually paying it and welcoming it into my life. No, it would not happen that, not any sooner still. 

You know what people say?

'So near yet so far.'

Cliche, but that's just how it is.

I am saddened by this truth. And from this sadness, it ventures into envy and other nonsensical thoughts, which I am absolutely aware of but still allowing some leeway just for the sake of it. Sometimes it just shoots right into my mind, like a jackpot, you know. These thoughts, these silly yet realistic lines of thought, pop up endless questions about all the whys, why-nots and if-onlys. 

I know it is never right to envy, because what would be left of contentment? And I know sadness is not the way to be, because where else would hope go to?

If you are not getting me, then lemme say this clear. Lemme wallow in my self-pity and I shall stop doing so when this sentence has its end.

There, said it, and that would be it.

My sadness doesn't last longer than the length of each blog post on its own. If the world is throwing all its mountains and checkpoints and valleys on me now, they would not bring me down, for I have my Lord. Well, perhaps He wants me to wait for His own gift. Who knows, it could be a better Nikon than all I've ever though of. :)

And I'll never stop any effort to earn what I want in life.

making yesterday for tomorrow

So I've finally met up with the two busiest persons of my age I have ever known. Well, not exactly. But maybe it is true for one of them. En Hau was back from Russia for the holidays and I did not even know of it until his utter surprise that I didn't know. Oh well, what more can I say to that? Besides, there wasn't any sign that I could pick up regarding his return to Malaysia. 

Let it be, let it be. :)

Wei Ming, the other super duper busy guy who is ever so caught up in whatever that he could be doing (which I suppose nobody has any inkling what he actually could be up to), managed to meet up with me before he flies off! Good enough, ain't it? I never expected we could at least have a drink together by this week seemingly my classes would resume soon. Very soon, in fact, it is only a couple of hours away from now. (And I'm still here, blogging. Yup, still here.*Shia Labeouf's accent*) Like I told him, "I wouldn't be mad, I just wouldn't talk to him." :P

Ahem, we need banters, really.

You see, when you come to this age, particularly in your twenties when college life comes knocking on your door, all these are unavoidable. It is a cycle, isn't it? It just repeats itself. Friends come and go, and it is definitely not an easy job having a longtime friend, what's more finding yourself a lifetime buddy. I was and am a friend to other people. I came, and I went. Circumstances change, things change, the bond changes as well. Of course, people may say, it's bound to happen and it is all part of growing up. That is true, but what makes friendship lasts is the commitment and effort every individual puts in. I admit, and I confess that I did not put in enough effort to maintain the closest friendship that I ever shared with a particular bunch of friends. And sometimes, when things are gone, they are gone for real. Time may improve things, but the effort will be doubled. Same old, same old.

Don't you think I could be a possible candidate for a philosopher? Are you thinking what I'm thinking? :P

So yeah, appreciate the friends that you have now. They are not easy to come by and when I say the word appreciate, I'm referring to valuing and prioritizing this special connection before it becomes too late to get it back. And twenty years from now, wouldn't you want to think back and enjoy an evening's reverie on a rocking chair (you could opt for an Osim massage chair though) about all the memories and hardships that rocked and shaped who you and your friend(s) are now?

I would love to, and now I'm putting in efforts to maintain these acquaintances so when that day comes, I would have cherished moments and not regrets to tell. :)

So a new semester shall begin. Yes, the holidays have just ended and, I don't know, there is something inside me that tells me, "I'm still not ready for this new semester." But, come what may, God is here with and for me. :)

Let's just hope this coming (it's already here!) semester will be better than its last. :)

Happy returning to college, people!

alone, but not lonely

I enjoy stillness. I like quietness. I like when the city is void of all the usual hustle and buzz. I like when streets become free from the wheels of heavy vehicles. I like when the concrete jungle is at rest and not many souls are around to roam these walkways. 

Sometimes it may not be a pitiful thing after all for not having a hometown that I can return to every festive season. I used to wonder about this point and envy friends who tell each other, what day they will leave and when they would come back from their hometown. Yes, it's true, I used to envy that I do not get to experience the life of having to return to a place where all members of the family would gather and enjoy the little joys. I even longed for one. :)

But not anymore.

In a good way, that is.

It's Raya time now and today is only the second day. There have been really loud noises of celebration, with all the firecrackers and whatnots. Sometimes, they just get to your nerve, you know.

Oh well.

Perhaps I'm sensitive to noise. I've always loved quiet places; as in, places that are quiet but safe enough that wrongful activities will not happen. I do enjoy being on my own. Of course, there are people who cannot stand spending time on their own. There are people who despise being alone, assuming it to be something pitiful and lonely. Then there are those that would not trade anything else for some personal time where they have all the freedom in the world to do what they want to do and what they previously have not the time to do. People, like me. :D

If you see me spending time alone, please, don't think me pitiful or lonely. I'm all good. :)

I like huge green fields and expansive pastures with some goats or sheeps that roam freely, picking and choosing their food. I like deserts where the sand is so soft and smooth that they pass through the gaps between your toes without the slightest blockage. I like seeing eagles soar through the big blue sky and pierce through cotton-white clouds, breathing in the liberty as though they are the kings of all flying creatures. 

That's why I like driving long distance journeys. I see the long stretch of highways and I find peace, and the stillness. It's good. :)

a thankfulness-driven indulgence

What do you do when you won a really important competition, say, the Olympics and bring home a gold medal? 

You thank God, and celebrate.

What do you do when you finally defeated a super duper challenging battle with the most feared character of all times in the Dynasty Warriors?

You cheer, and celebrate.

What do you do when you are rewarded for all the efforts you have put in to a project of the year?

You give thanks, and celebrate.

What do you do when you, after living 20 years on earth thinking that you can only walk, suddenly realize you actually have a hidden and inactive ability to fly like Iron Man??

YOU FLY! :D

My feelings could be summed up in those few scenes. Well, only applicable after my heart was fully assured of the uncertain. At least. :)

Results are out, and I am more than thankful and glad and satisfied and REAL GLAD TO BE EXACT. :)

We all know how the last semester has been and am sure are better prepared for the coming semester in order not to have history repeat itself on us again. 

With God, you can. :)

Sending out my love to all who read this, and to all who don't, and to all who know me, and to all who don't.

And most importantly, to the One who has loved me and continues to love me more than I could ever love anyone and who has been so awesomely terrific to me. 

Thank you Lord! :)

Words can never be enough to tell how really very thankful I am for what I have gotten. 

I love you, Lord. :)

So for the time being, let us all have the fullest of our remaining days of freedom. Yes, the clock is ticking and the day is going by. To you all who have fared well and gotten the results you dreamed of, the most heartfelt congratulations! To those who are less satisfied (I hope there aren't any, for we all got past this thing quite superbly I guess :)), please don't be too troubled by it, we'll all continue to fight to the end, together. *pinky promise*

But really, results or not, I think I've been indulging myself very much these holidays. :D

THANK GOD!

because they make meaning to my music

GUESS WHAT?!

That's right. 

Boys Like Girls is BACK!

#fangirlmodeon

If you're close enough to me to know my taste in music, you will be so darn sure that this is the kind of music that gets me swinging off my feet. Enough to make me go gaga over it for dayssss. :D

Well, credit must be given to this buddy of mine for telling me about this song. It's a brand new one from BLG (OHMYGOSH!). Thousands  Hundreds of thanks Wei Ming! :P

BLG has been my, um, how should I put it? It is the band that got me loving boy bands like them. It is the band that got me loving pop punk and later alternative and indie music. It is the band that until now, I never get tire of their first songs from their first album. It is the band that I guess has set my music taste apart from the 'typical' mainstream pop culture. It is the band that I've been waiting and longing and hoping to hear new songs from very soon. It is the band that, dramatically speaking, accompanied me through my teenage years. :)

Some of their earlier songs were quite loud and noisy, and that's perfectly normal if people do not like them instantly. But they are real good. And I like them, I know I do. So why bother with what others think of your music taste when deep down within your heart, you know your life would not be how it is now if not because of their music. Too dramatic? But isn't it really that way? 

Music does the magic baby. (Y)

OHMYGOSH, I cannot get enough of Martin Johnson. Mind you, I actually went to BLG's Facebook page to check out the lead singer's name. Yes, I could just fail as a fan girl. Honestly, for all the bands that I am into, I do not remember most of the names of the members. I JUST DO NOT. I never googled them anyway. Somehow BLG's lead singer's name seems to have some similarity with Chris Martin from Coldplay. (That, I can remember very well. Well, it's Coldplay, what can you say? :P) Turns out both names have Martin! :D

I DO REMEMBER SOMEHOW! #proudofmyself

People used to ask me to introduce them to some nice songs. But I always reply them, 'The songs I listen to are the ones you don't listen.' It is true in some way. Some responses I've got so far, 'It's very loud', 'It's very noisy' and, absolute rejection. HAHAHAHA

But in those days whenever someone asks me for that favour, BLG's song will surely be included. No joke.

I'm really really looking forward for more of their new songs. <3 nbsp="nbsp">

Boys Like Girls, that's a fan request from Malaysia. :)

Oops, after all the babbling, here it is. The official lyrics video and the music video. :)

Tell me, how can you NOT love these people?

Its tune is already on auto replay in my mind. You see what music can do to people? I was just casually scrolling on my Facebook homepage and then so unconsciously, I started humming to this song which I only heard yesterday. Man, I love BLG. <3 font="font">

That's mean, Martin. :P

I'll share, I promise. That's what I'm doing now, for you, Martin. :D

#boyslikegirls <3 font="font">

this little thing called life

Life is such a fragile thing. One moment you're here, the next moment you're gone. One moment you're the happiest person on earth, the next moment you may wonder if you'll ever feel happy anymore. 

Sometimes people may gain all that they want from this planet. But they will never always be satisfied. Some people may think they have all the authority on their lives. But it is not always that way, because things can go out of the way. Sometimes people just develop this thought, "Hey, I don't even need anyone's help." But at one point in our lives, we will be humbled to a stage that we might even find it too unbelievable. 

Life is really a fragile little thing. No matter how much control we think we have over our own lives, there seems to be an external force that never fails to alter the way we want it to be. The result? Well, it may turn out to be pleasanter than we could've planned it ourselves. Or it could become the worst disaster we could ever think of. Yet, with every little thing that we stumble over as we go about this life journey, there is a lesson that we are bound to learn from it. Even if we do not learn from it and repeat the same mistake another time, we can't deny that there is something important that yells to us, "Hey, look here, you're gonna fall into the same deep shit again if you don't listen to me!"

I think everything happens for a reason. Some people may believe in a thing called fate, some believe fate is the last thing that has a say in their lives, while some, well, there is this special thing called submission. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I know this because I know that God is working behind such events and is drawing out the best future He will give me.

You see, in our lives, many things happen which we ourselves can't find a good enough explanation to explain it, even to ourselves. And sometimes, our lives seem to be going in a way that is so unexpected from what we initially had in mind. I've seen enough recently to say that at times, we just have to submit to God ourselves and our lives because, why struggle with our limited abilities when God Himself is asking us to leave it all to Him and have peace.

Be still, and know that I am God.

I so love this song. :)

My grandpa has just returned to the Lord. Yes, there will be sadness and grievances. But the Lord has called to him in his unconsciousness. God's peace was with him and I know it to be true because God answers prayers. He has answered our prayers.

Be still, God is doing His work. Appreciate all that we are blessed with, for life is just too fragile.