xoxo for you babe

22th October 2009

Thursday

My start of a new blog

And I thought it would be a nice one

You know, a happy intro

But then

It doesn't seem to be so huh

5th October 2009

Official

Man, I was happy with the times we had

I mean, even though it was just texting

And the day we went out

That was so cool

I was so damn happy that day

Dunno bout you

But I admit I was totally crazee over you

You convinced me

Man, why does it feel so like deja vu

Hmm

You got me into it

Who would have thought things would turn out this way

Hmm

22th October 2009

Official

It was all over

You couldn't imagine how hurt it was

For 4 days straight

Not even a word man

And you never replied my messages

And I was just thinking you were mad at me

I'm not blaming you for anything

I mean, relationships are such right

They just never work out the way we want them to

But I'd never thought it would be this

I don't wanna blame you for anything

But I just can't help it you know

It's so difficult

Everything you said before

And when you convinced me that we could avoid it

Hmm

It's difficult not to put the blame on you

For now

I know it's not entirely your fault

I just wish that you wouldn't make this decision

I don't ask anything from you man

Seriously

It really hurts a lot

That message really sent my tears rolling down

I totally lost my appetite for dinner

Man, and ice-cream doesn't help at all

I mean, people usually say when you're sad, ice-cream makes you feel better?

Something like that?

But, I felt nothing?

I mean, I guess I was all numb already

Felt like that so many times before

I'm all numb I guess

='(

Been a long time since I used that emoticon

I still like you

I really do

Even if it sounds totally crazee

I keep telling myself it would all be okay

I know it will

It just takes time right?

Like you said

Yeah

I will just, you know, embrace everything

And put on a smile

As best I could

I will

We're still friends

Just, wished we could be more than just friends

You make me fall in love with

But now you left me hanging there

But still

xoxo

Just for you, babe

claira.xoxo