let's be random, for once!

I need to brush up on my manual-driving skills. Urgh, I mati engine-ed twice last night when driving Teh Chen's car. Uh-uh, no good.

I need to get a grip with it.

Every week, lemme practice. =D

Now, I'm motivated to go for badminton every Saturday just so I can drive Teh Chen's car. =P

Though I may be troubled and upset with all those bloody not-supposed-to-be-upset shit, I still do. But you are my comfort. =)

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should've said no

You know the good thing about IHC is that I can now use terms that I don't commonly use in communication.

And now, I'm using another of those terms.

Accommodating.

I think I tend to accommodate too much and too easily sometimes.

Suppressing own's needs just because you do not want to hurt the other person's feelings or cause them to feel offended?

I never knew I would actually take this so seriously. But yes, it matters. It matters a lot.

And yes, I am really disappointed and perhaps angry with myself too, at times.

Need a hug so badly. ='(

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history replayed

Look! You see it? Look very very carefully.

Dude, it's Titanic 2!

It's THE Titanic 2 peeps!

I never expected much outta this sequel after I watched the trailer though. It was like, everything but what Titanic is all about. Well, blame it on the fixed mindset I've had had ever since I watched the original Titanic movie. So yeah, did not give any high expectations from the sequel. 

Somewhat a lil prejudice too actually. =P

Alright, let's compare, shall we?

Titanic vs Titanic 2.

Titanic 2 is half of its predecessor's time length. And therefore, not much details into the characters and stuff. The special effects, totally blew me off man. Um, in a negative way, sorta. They were so fake okay? The iceberg and glaciers breaking off, totally fake. The titanic sailing on the surface of Atlantic, fake. Seriously, those effects- CGI is it?- so unreal. But then, some were better off towards the end especially when the first and second wave of the tsunami hit the vessel. *whistles*

Too bad, there wasn't much of a lovey-dovey romance in the movie as much as the original did. No artsy drawings, if you know what I mean. No, 'I jump, you jump' thingy. Oh yes, and one more thing, the ship did not break in half and therefore, no sinking shown. Blame it on the time. Limit?

The ending was just that brief. =S

But I guess it wasn't a bad movie after all. One thing terrific was the suspension. Seriously, their suspension kills man. No joke. My heart almost skipped a beat for every single suspension that hit. That's the utmost element I like about this movie.

Overall, I wouldn't say this is better than Titanic but it's still worth watching. Hmm, I guess my initial perception of this movie was not that accurate after all. =P

Watch it, peeps. Absolutely worth your 1 1/2 hours' time.

"Looks like history's repeating itself."

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the surge is back

I know I already have an auto.

But.

I drove Teh Chen's car after badminton just now. And since I started that, all others followed suit. And ended up we took turns driving everyone's car. =D

Awesome us!

And and and, I want a manual car. So so so badly now. =(

I wanna drive one. Like Wei Ming said, it's so 'yeng' and yes, I admit, it totally makes a girl who drives manual cars freakingly cool. =D

 I want a manual car!!!

Jeez, should've requested for a manual instead of auto last time. Oops, my bad to complain. =P

MANUAL!!!

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hey cousin bro

2 hours sitting down at the car workshop, waiting patiently for him to service my car while juggling with other customers at the same time too.

As I watch him attend to every one of his incoming customers, a smile lit up my face. 

He's so different now.

He has grown up. Physically and mentally.

His hands skillful with the tools.

And to think deeper, I am in no comparison with him.

And yes, he drove me in his former Kelisa which has now become mine, up to 140km/h just to prove that the car's in good condition.

He has become stronger and tougher due to the loss.

I admire him.

I respect him.

I adore him.

Sometimes I wish I could have a big brother that could protect me and talk to me and understand me. Ahh, how I wish.

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glimpse into the comms, perhaps?

So we visited The Star's Media Hub in Shah Alam.

It was H-U-G-E!

Glad I made the trip. =) Totally worth my 8 bucks. But too bad they didn't allow us to snap pictures of the printing processes and machines thing.

I was like, "I want! I want!" for the tag. =D

The Glee pose that Michelle resisted so much. =P

Believably the future journalists. =)

Us with Mr Winston aka the IMCOMM lecturer. =D Lots of sound effects and by far the most 'in' "teacher" I ever had. 

With Ms Siow, our IHC lecturer. Scary at times, always indirectly imply that we should read the text book. =P Yet, she intrigues me much.

Can we have a trip to Astro next time? I soooo wanna see how it is in broadcast stations and radio stations and stuff like that. =D Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? =)

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not being the okayy me

No, I wasn't okay. I am not entirely okay yet. Okayy?

This has been by far the worst week ever in my college history. Yes, it sucks big time.

I should have insisted.

I should have voiced out.

I should not have assumed.

I should not have think everything will be fine.

I should not have done it last minute.

I should not have stressed myself. 

But I did. And it sucks much.

Never have I felt as if I've dropped into a bottomless pit and never gonna resurface. 

You weren't there when I needed you so much.

Help me through, dear God. 

I should never have said I was not stress.

x x x 

hotstuff yet again

They look cool don't they? Hot, maybe? 

*drum rolls*


Presenting to you, Holiday Parade! =D


I know, I've not even memorized or get to know specifically any of their songs yet. It won't be long till I learn them though. Hopefully. *fingers crossed* =)


I'm gonna make sure I burn their, Faber Drive and Marianas Trench songs and rock them out in my car especially when I'm all stuck in the daily traffic jam! *head banging* =P


Currently into Holiday Parade. Been into Faber Drive and Marianas Trench earlier, but still love them anyway. =D




Slam Crunk!




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it's something bout love

Eros is romantic, passionate, love—what Tennov labeled limerence. In this type of relationship, love is life's most important thing. Lee said a search for physical beauty or an ideal type also typifies this type of love.

Ludus is a game-playing or uncommitted love. Lying is part of the game. A person who pursues ludic love may have many conquests but remains uncommitted.

Storge (STORE-gay) is a slow developing, friendship-based loved. People with this type of relationship like to participate in activities together. Often storge results in a long-term relationship in which sex might not be very intense or passionate.

Pragma is a pragmatic, practical, mutually beneficial relationship. It may be somewhat unromantic. A person who leans toward this type of relationship may look for a partner at work or where the person is spending time. Sex is likely to be seen as a technical matter needed for producing children, if they are desired.

Mania is an obsessive or possessive love, jealous and extreme. A person in love this way is likely to do something crazy or silly, such as stalking. The movie Fatal Attraction was about this type.

Agape (a-GOP-aye) is a gentle, caring, giving type of love, brotherly love, not concerned with the self. It is relatively rare. Mother Theresa showed this kind of love for impoverished people.

Source: http://www.psywww.com/intropsych/ch16_sfl/six_types_of_love.html

Assignments, homeworks, presentations. I know, they suck big times. That is one thing no college/uni student will ever deny. But sometimes those work kinda interest me you know. If not for IHC's short essay homework, I wouldn't have known that there are such kinds of love. And talking about ludus love, I wouldn't even regard it as love. I mean, if it's uncommitted, then it wouldn't be love. Different POVs for different people. *POV stand for point of view in this case.

Yes, different people, different POVs, different angles of perspective. Call me mature or old-fashioned or anything you like, but to me, love has a much more essential meaning. I mean, liking someone and loving someone is totally different you see. It's complex, sophisticated, ambiguous. 

I uhh, I don't think I would say "I love you" without really meaning it. To friends, I do love them. And so I can say it. To family, it's harder for me to say it verbally since we're so close and, well, idk, I just don't have the habit of saying it. But deep down, I do love them. But if it's for someone special, it really takes me lotsa time to say it and really mean it. It's not easy.

You know why I like Blair and Chuck? It's because they really mean it when they say "I love you" and both of them couldn't make themselves say it to each other in the first place because it's just too difficult! And it has risks, risks that will break your heart into million pieces. 

I'll say it only when I'm ready to say it.

Umm, I guess for my homework, I would choose storge and agape love. =D

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talking about, books?

Books- one of the chapter for this week's IMCOMM lecture. 

Books, I like them. I adore them. I treasure them.

It felt good, great, terrific to have something that is related so much to you being discussed about. What's more, it was the topic of a lecture.

I guess I could really relate to books when the lecture was going on. Yeah, guess I did throughout the whole lecture save for the part on history. Oh well, I suck at history. =P

Once Harry Potter was mentioned, my mind kept revolving around Harry Potter and Harry Potter only. And strangely enough, it somehow struck me of which book I do not own. Well yeah, I only have 6 books outta 7 books of the Harry Potter series. And also, recalling the release of Deathly Hallows and how Tesco/Carrefour sold them at a price almost half of that of the original's and not forgetting me successfully convinced mum to bring me to Times Square early in the morning just to queue for the book. 

Crazy people huh?

I like to fantasize. Actually, I think it's a good thing to do sometimes, not taking into accounts of fantasies about being a princess and meeting your prince charming riding on a white horse to your castle though. No, I don't think I would even think of that. I might as well fantasize about me getting into Hogwarts and believing there might really be a magical world as that. I wish there would, you know. Life would be so much more unpredictable. I would you know, undergo all those hardships and obstacles Harry and the gang went through. I would give anything to try at least once in this reality. *sighs*


Anyway, I picture having a really really really massive room with walls lined with bookshelves from ground to ceiling compactly filled with lots and lots and LOTS of BOOKS!
Awhhh =)


Life would be so blissful you know. 


And there'll be a really huge lush, maybe maroon, carpet spread widely on the entire room's floor. And it will always be clean and smelled of lavender or anything natural and I'll be free to just lie prostrate on it with a book always in hand. 


CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE THAT???


I want a library in my house. I want to have many collections of books. I want it so badly!


I'll surely make this my priority in the near future. =)




Pinky promise to self.






x x x 

time for stick-cons

So much thanks to IHC's presentation practice due next Monday, I've been busying myself with information which I do not know whether they're actually more to communication or leadership. And yes, our topic is Communication in Leadership. Sounds easy ain't it? Yes, it did to me. I had so many ideas on how to make it work but when we actually got down to work, we were kinda stuck as to what we should do. Urgh! That frustration in me.

But thank God, I guess we kinda managed to so-called worked it out by now. At least that's how I think of it. =P

So yes, as I was saying, so much thanks to this presentation, and since I'm the one who idk-why (probably being too 'enthusiastic' about doing PowerPoint) became the one doing PowerPoint, I've googled several pictures to be inserted along with the clips. And look at them! Just you look at the pictures above! Aren't they amazing? They're just so adorable and yet, eye-catching! Simple yet classy. *thumbs up* =)

And I've been addicted to these pictures ever since. Gosh, all I did the whole night besides putting up the final touches to the slides was googling for such pictures and slot in as many as I can into the slides. Awesome me. =D

And this, is by far my favourite!

Made it the cover picture. =)

Oh well, presentation too has something good to offer though. *surprisingly* =P

Ahh, photojournalism? 

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going against the flow, perhaps?

Hey peeps!

Seems like I've really been MIA for some time. So much thanks to assignments, ECS project and idk what else actually. But it just seems like I've got A LOT to do! And you know what? I don't even have time to read the Nora Roberts' book I borrowed from the library. See how hectic I am now?

Oh yes yes YES! ECS project! For if Ryan hadn't mentioned that we still have 2 more weeks left before we gotta present our 'play', I wouldn't have realized that time has really flew passed my very own eyes. And on top of that, he even mentioned that our finals are just a month away. Phew, that's pretty quick. Like, I just finished my mid-terms?

Sometimes thinking of these all make me wanna say, "Whoever said that college life is fun is definitely crazy."

But no, I resist myself from saying so. I do not want myself to think like that. Because I truly believe college life is awesome. Oh well, sometimes I do not know why I am learning all this and not 'actually' learning how to be what we aspire to be. No, seriously, it did cross my mind when I started my very first class. It kept me thinking, why am I studying human comm? Or even mass comm? I thought I am gonna be a journalist *or so I wish*? So why am I studying all these? Why not learning how to write like a journalist?

You know, questions like these, they just are attracted to me. Or maybe the other way round. LOL

But I guess in some ways, I am living my life towards a more 'communication-learned' way. LMAO. Gee, I've no idea what kinda weird words I use while blogging but I just do. XD So yeah, that day when mum was telling me stuff, I responded with, "That's self-fulfilling prophecy."

It might be scary sooner or later, all I speak is communication terms. I'll be damned.

x x x

two is better than one? NOT

How in the world would I have watched The Legend of the Fist TWICE?!

Like, seriously?!

But yeah, I watched it just because I know that would be the only movie bro would wanna watch. Oh, he definitely would not go for Eat Pray Love nor that Legend of the Guardian thing? But thank God we managed to buy the tickets at the very last minute and not having to check for bro's IC. Or else...

So yeah, this time, we were just on time and I managed to watch what I've missed out on the first time I watched it. Oh well, no cryings, thankfully. Mum was sitting beside me, mind you. But for the anticipated violent scenes, I just shut my eyes. 

Mum asked me 2 questions.

1. Why must be 18 above only can watch?

2. How come the mole on the girl's face is on the other side already?

PS. Um, the second one wasn't really a question actually. 

So, the first one, that's obvious enough for someone who is so against violent movies. And yes, because it is too violent. My point of view.

The second one was when mum, out of a sudden, leaned over and told me that the mole on the girl's face has 'shifted' to the other side. I was like, what??

Mum, seriously? I was so sure those sitting on the other aisle could hear us giggling away. =P

And I didn't know the movie was so long until it ended at 1130++ if I'm not mistaken. So yeah, by the time mum fetched us home, it was already midnight. Oops =P

Hmm, still can't stop wondering why in th first place I would go for THIS movie!

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