making yesterday for tomorrow

So I've finally met up with the two busiest persons of my age I have ever known. Well, not exactly. But maybe it is true for one of them. En Hau was back from Russia for the holidays and I did not even know of it until his utter surprise that I didn't know. Oh well, what more can I say to that? Besides, there wasn't any sign that I could pick up regarding his return to Malaysia. 

Let it be, let it be. :)

Wei Ming, the other super duper busy guy who is ever so caught up in whatever that he could be doing (which I suppose nobody has any inkling what he actually could be up to), managed to meet up with me before he flies off! Good enough, ain't it? I never expected we could at least have a drink together by this week seemingly my classes would resume soon. Very soon, in fact, it is only a couple of hours away from now. (And I'm still here, blogging. Yup, still here.*Shia Labeouf's accent*) Like I told him, "I wouldn't be mad, I just wouldn't talk to him." :P

Ahem, we need banters, really.

You see, when you come to this age, particularly in your twenties when college life comes knocking on your door, all these are unavoidable. It is a cycle, isn't it? It just repeats itself. Friends come and go, and it is definitely not an easy job having a longtime friend, what's more finding yourself a lifetime buddy. I was and am a friend to other people. I came, and I went. Circumstances change, things change, the bond changes as well. Of course, people may say, it's bound to happen and it is all part of growing up. That is true, but what makes friendship lasts is the commitment and effort every individual puts in. I admit, and I confess that I did not put in enough effort to maintain the closest friendship that I ever shared with a particular bunch of friends. And sometimes, when things are gone, they are gone for real. Time may improve things, but the effort will be doubled. Same old, same old.

Don't you think I could be a possible candidate for a philosopher? Are you thinking what I'm thinking? :P

So yeah, appreciate the friends that you have now. They are not easy to come by and when I say the word appreciate, I'm referring to valuing and prioritizing this special connection before it becomes too late to get it back. And twenty years from now, wouldn't you want to think back and enjoy an evening's reverie on a rocking chair (you could opt for an Osim massage chair though) about all the memories and hardships that rocked and shaped who you and your friend(s) are now?

I would love to, and now I'm putting in efforts to maintain these acquaintances so when that day comes, I would have cherished moments and not regrets to tell. :)

So a new semester shall begin. Yes, the holidays have just ended and, I don't know, there is something inside me that tells me, "I'm still not ready for this new semester." But, come what may, God is here with and for me. :)

Let's just hope this coming (it's already here!) semester will be better than its last. :)

Happy returning to college, people!

alone, but not lonely

I enjoy stillness. I like quietness. I like when the city is void of all the usual hustle and buzz. I like when streets become free from the wheels of heavy vehicles. I like when the concrete jungle is at rest and not many souls are around to roam these walkways. 

Sometimes it may not be a pitiful thing after all for not having a hometown that I can return to every festive season. I used to wonder about this point and envy friends who tell each other, what day they will leave and when they would come back from their hometown. Yes, it's true, I used to envy that I do not get to experience the life of having to return to a place where all members of the family would gather and enjoy the little joys. I even longed for one. :)

But not anymore.

In a good way, that is.

It's Raya time now and today is only the second day. There have been really loud noises of celebration, with all the firecrackers and whatnots. Sometimes, they just get to your nerve, you know.

Oh well.

Perhaps I'm sensitive to noise. I've always loved quiet places; as in, places that are quiet but safe enough that wrongful activities will not happen. I do enjoy being on my own. Of course, there are people who cannot stand spending time on their own. There are people who despise being alone, assuming it to be something pitiful and lonely. Then there are those that would not trade anything else for some personal time where they have all the freedom in the world to do what they want to do and what they previously have not the time to do. People, like me. :D

If you see me spending time alone, please, don't think me pitiful or lonely. I'm all good. :)

I like huge green fields and expansive pastures with some goats or sheeps that roam freely, picking and choosing their food. I like deserts where the sand is so soft and smooth that they pass through the gaps between your toes without the slightest blockage. I like seeing eagles soar through the big blue sky and pierce through cotton-white clouds, breathing in the liberty as though they are the kings of all flying creatures. 

That's why I like driving long distance journeys. I see the long stretch of highways and I find peace, and the stillness. It's good. :)

a thankfulness-driven indulgence

What do you do when you won a really important competition, say, the Olympics and bring home a gold medal? 

You thank God, and celebrate.

What do you do when you finally defeated a super duper challenging battle with the most feared character of all times in the Dynasty Warriors?

You cheer, and celebrate.

What do you do when you are rewarded for all the efforts you have put in to a project of the year?

You give thanks, and celebrate.

What do you do when you, after living 20 years on earth thinking that you can only walk, suddenly realize you actually have a hidden and inactive ability to fly like Iron Man??

YOU FLY! :D

My feelings could be summed up in those few scenes. Well, only applicable after my heart was fully assured of the uncertain. At least. :)

Results are out, and I am more than thankful and glad and satisfied and REAL GLAD TO BE EXACT. :)

We all know how the last semester has been and am sure are better prepared for the coming semester in order not to have history repeat itself on us again. 

With God, you can. :)

Sending out my love to all who read this, and to all who don't, and to all who know me, and to all who don't.

And most importantly, to the One who has loved me and continues to love me more than I could ever love anyone and who has been so awesomely terrific to me. 

Thank you Lord! :)

Words can never be enough to tell how really very thankful I am for what I have gotten. 

I love you, Lord. :)

So for the time being, let us all have the fullest of our remaining days of freedom. Yes, the clock is ticking and the day is going by. To you all who have fared well and gotten the results you dreamed of, the most heartfelt congratulations! To those who are less satisfied (I hope there aren't any, for we all got past this thing quite superbly I guess :)), please don't be too troubled by it, we'll all continue to fight to the end, together. *pinky promise*

But really, results or not, I think I've been indulging myself very much these holidays. :D

THANK GOD!

because they make meaning to my music

GUESS WHAT?!

That's right. 

Boys Like Girls is BACK!

#fangirlmodeon

If you're close enough to me to know my taste in music, you will be so darn sure that this is the kind of music that gets me swinging off my feet. Enough to make me go gaga over it for dayssss. :D

Well, credit must be given to this buddy of mine for telling me about this song. It's a brand new one from BLG (OHMYGOSH!). Thousands  Hundreds of thanks Wei Ming! :P

BLG has been my, um, how should I put it? It is the band that got me loving boy bands like them. It is the band that got me loving pop punk and later alternative and indie music. It is the band that until now, I never get tire of their first songs from their first album. It is the band that I guess has set my music taste apart from the 'typical' mainstream pop culture. It is the band that I've been waiting and longing and hoping to hear new songs from very soon. It is the band that, dramatically speaking, accompanied me through my teenage years. :)

Some of their earlier songs were quite loud and noisy, and that's perfectly normal if people do not like them instantly. But they are real good. And I like them, I know I do. So why bother with what others think of your music taste when deep down within your heart, you know your life would not be how it is now if not because of their music. Too dramatic? But isn't it really that way? 

Music does the magic baby. (Y)

OHMYGOSH, I cannot get enough of Martin Johnson. Mind you, I actually went to BLG's Facebook page to check out the lead singer's name. Yes, I could just fail as a fan girl. Honestly, for all the bands that I am into, I do not remember most of the names of the members. I JUST DO NOT. I never googled them anyway. Somehow BLG's lead singer's name seems to have some similarity with Chris Martin from Coldplay. (That, I can remember very well. Well, it's Coldplay, what can you say? :P) Turns out both names have Martin! :D

I DO REMEMBER SOMEHOW! #proudofmyself

People used to ask me to introduce them to some nice songs. But I always reply them, 'The songs I listen to are the ones you don't listen.' It is true in some way. Some responses I've got so far, 'It's very loud', 'It's very noisy' and, absolute rejection. HAHAHAHA

But in those days whenever someone asks me for that favour, BLG's song will surely be included. No joke.

I'm really really looking forward for more of their new songs. <3 nbsp="nbsp">

Boys Like Girls, that's a fan request from Malaysia. :)

Oops, after all the babbling, here it is. The official lyrics video and the music video. :)

Tell me, how can you NOT love these people?

Its tune is already on auto replay in my mind. You see what music can do to people? I was just casually scrolling on my Facebook homepage and then so unconsciously, I started humming to this song which I only heard yesterday. Man, I love BLG. <3 font="font">

That's mean, Martin. :P

I'll share, I promise. That's what I'm doing now, for you, Martin. :D

#boyslikegirls <3 font="font">

this little thing called life

Life is such a fragile thing. One moment you're here, the next moment you're gone. One moment you're the happiest person on earth, the next moment you may wonder if you'll ever feel happy anymore. 

Sometimes people may gain all that they want from this planet. But they will never always be satisfied. Some people may think they have all the authority on their lives. But it is not always that way, because things can go out of the way. Sometimes people just develop this thought, "Hey, I don't even need anyone's help." But at one point in our lives, we will be humbled to a stage that we might even find it too unbelievable. 

Life is really a fragile little thing. No matter how much control we think we have over our own lives, there seems to be an external force that never fails to alter the way we want it to be. The result? Well, it may turn out to be pleasanter than we could've planned it ourselves. Or it could become the worst disaster we could ever think of. Yet, with every little thing that we stumble over as we go about this life journey, there is a lesson that we are bound to learn from it. Even if we do not learn from it and repeat the same mistake another time, we can't deny that there is something important that yells to us, "Hey, look here, you're gonna fall into the same deep shit again if you don't listen to me!"

I think everything happens for a reason. Some people may believe in a thing called fate, some believe fate is the last thing that has a say in their lives, while some, well, there is this special thing called submission. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I know this because I know that God is working behind such events and is drawing out the best future He will give me.

You see, in our lives, many things happen which we ourselves can't find a good enough explanation to explain it, even to ourselves. And sometimes, our lives seem to be going in a way that is so unexpected from what we initially had in mind. I've seen enough recently to say that at times, we just have to submit to God ourselves and our lives because, why struggle with our limited abilities when God Himself is asking us to leave it all to Him and have peace.

Be still, and know that I am God.

I so love this song. :)

My grandpa has just returned to the Lord. Yes, there will be sadness and grievances. But the Lord has called to him in his unconsciousness. God's peace was with him and I know it to be true because God answers prayers. He has answered our prayers.

Be still, God is doing His work. Appreciate all that we are blessed with, for life is just too fragile.

a much deserved ovation

So apparently, this match was the peak of this summer's Olympics in London. Yes well, the enthusiasm is not as strong as it has ever been, especially not this crazy over this game. But today, or more specifically on this night, I am never prouder to have shared the concerns and emotions that I suppose most, if not all, Malaysians equally experience throughout the match. 

So this was how it went. Naively, me and my mum thought the final match was to take place at 4pm in the evening. So happened I agreed immediately to accompany her out to some place decent where we could enjoy the game. Then after all the confusion only did we realize it was only at 8pm that the finals will take place. And after the cosy nap we both had, history seemed to repeat itself and we headed out (again), thinking that only Astro has live broadcast.

Oh well, so much for the trouble.

But mum said it is such little things that make up memorable moments. :)

I have to admit, this was really the first time I have ever sit down quietly (actually not at all quiet also) to watch a complete badminton match. I believe I've made quite an improvement there. :)

Watching the match was super intense. It was a rubber match, our awesome representative, Lee Chong Wei was leading in the first match. The his all-time rival, and the already mustache-y Lin Dan took control in the second one. WHICH IS WHY THE THIRD MATCH WAS SO FRIGGIN INTENSE!

What's more, the commentator wasn't making it any much better.

Realistically (they say), Lin Dan won. Of course, we all hoped against hope that it would turn out otherwise. But his winning doesn't mean Chong Wei's losing. Yeah well, practically, he would bring home a silver medal instead of a gold one. Yes, Lin Dan has once again retained his title as world's number one. But this means that Chong Wei has once again won the hearts of many Malaysians.

Seeing him on the ground amidst the joyful cries and shouts from China's supporters was really a heart-breaking moment. Yup, even to me. I feel for him. He looked so dejected and sad. I could almost just run up to him, hug him tightly and assure him that everything is alright, you have done fine. If I could.

Tonight, I dare say that I have never been prouder of being a Malaysian, and that is all because of you, Datuk Lee Chong Wei. Please don't apologize to us all for your great performance out there in that stadium. Why even say sorry for the great effort you have poured into this final match? If there is anyone blaming you for not winning the medal, it is not even worth your time to think anything about it. While I was watching this match, my mind kept going back to the ladies doubles where the players cheated. Then I thought about what Chong Wei was now doing for his country, making it proud and known to the people not only in London but everyone who has ears and eyes to hear and see. 

Really, please oh please do not say sorry to us. I don't blame you in the least bit for the spirit you have been fighting on behalf of Malaysia. I don't blame you in the least bit for not winning this finals. I believe that through tonight's match, you have united us Malaysians even more. Just remember that we are your supporters and no matter how much disappointment and sadness you are not undergoing, we feel the same as you too.

I'm really really proud to have you as our representative. 

Thank you so much, Datuk Lee Chong Wei.

You make Malaysia proud. :')