all you need is a little prayer

Have you ever had that feeling of being really down but when you try so hard to think of the roots for this gloominess, you can't really find out the real reason? 

Have you ever had that sudden drop in your emotions as if you've just fallen from cloud nine to the bottom of Jack's gigantic beanstalk? 

Have you ever had that moment where everything around you just doesn't seem right and the more you focus your attention on these things, the more they seem to depress you?

Have you ever had that momentary hopelessness where you felt like you are the biggest loser in this whole wide universe and that every disappointment that had befallen on you or those you love is because of you?

Well, I do. And I think that's pretty normal for an ordinary human like me. Or at least I think that is a normal thing to happen to an ordinary human like me. Or maybe I'm not an ordinary human? 

I don't know. If I know, it'll depress me even further. 

Or not. :P

What I am trying to say is that, people do have ups and downs. We all have emotional fluctuations in our lives no matter how frequent or how big the change is. 

Frankly speaking, I've been in a pretty gloomy state these couple of days. If you want me to say what the actual reason was, I have to confess that I cannot be completely sure. Yes, there may be some incidents, or the only one that I could think of, which perhaps have led to this drop in spirits. Guess it had taken its toll on me.

But I got through it. 

All you need is just a little prayer. :)

If you believe, it will work, for God knows your heart even before you pray. But if you pray to Him, He will hear and He will listen and He will grant you. No matter how hard things seem to be and how far life seems to be pushing you towards the edge, God will never abandon you if you are willing to seek Him. I guess I did so, and for now, all seems to be going well. 

Well, I'm sure God has His own plans laid out for me. What more do I have to doubt or worry about? :)

Remember, all you need is a little prayer. :)

there's rainbow after the rain

People should see others in new ways. Put away those impressions and negative thoughts about others that they have carried for so long. Throw aside our existing image we have created of them from past knowledge. Shut the door of the past and open another for brand new light to shine on these people whom we have thought of wrongly.

Close that old vision and receive new sight for these people. Isn't that what is required from us? If God can accept as us His children and see us anew, what excuses should we give to not do so?

But saying it is always hundred times simpler than actually doing it. I know, it happens to me as well. You see, sometimes people may think that the speaker behind all these seemingly inspiring/encouraging words are themselves close to perfect humans or have indeed lived what they spoke of. Truth is, they are humans like all of us are. The same goes to me. I am just another ordinary human and what makes me say such words is not to ask others to do what myself do not do. The reason may just be because I know this is part of my weakness as a mortal and it is crucial that I don't just stop where I already am, but to keep pushing myself further.

Who says it is a simple job? Nobody says so, but if you have not agreed to put in extra effort to change this weakness, then how can you expect others to see you in a way that is better than how they used to see you?

We are always haunted by the past. Always a soldier in a game of chess. But if you do not strive for the best, what chances are left to becoming a knight? :)

Yes, I do hope God's miracles will be upon us. Change us into better persons. Let us see others anew just like how God sees us as his children.

I still have hope. :)

Changed my desktop background. Know how to print screen but no idea how I can resize it to the optimum. Sorry guys. :P

It's so beautiful. I love it! :)

overflowing in abundance

I've been feeling lots of love lately. Maybe it's my subconscious mind playing a trick on me. Or maybe it's my heart getting more sweetness. Or maybe, it is God's blessings on me.

No, that's not a maybe. I am sure it is God's blessings. He is good. :)

You see, some people, if not many, have this feeling that they are far away from love. They couldn't feel the love around them. Maybe there is none, maybe they have searched at the wrong place, or maybe they simply think they do not need it. 

But we all do. We live in love. 

Adults may think that the reason young people nowadays go for romantic relationships is because they want to search for love that they feel themselves deprived of. It could be the reason. I do not know it.

But that doesn't mean being in a relationship is a bad thing. No, I don't regard it as something negative. It's lovely seeing two people from being complete strangers to now having such a strong bond between them. It's a pretty sight to watch them spending happy moments together and making up after fighting over the pettiest stuff ever. It's even wonderful to see old couples still showing their love to each other. 

Don't envy, really. If you are reading this (if there's anyone reading it), I don't mean to arouse those feelings in you.

Perhaps at some points in our lives, we do feel like that. Like, how I wish I could have someone like that to treat me like his one and only princess. Or, how I wish that was me.

It's normal, really. :)

But have you taken some time to look about you? Have you noticed how many more people around you that have loved you as much, or even more? Have you been too busy searching for someone you don't know at the wrong place? Yes, it may sound cliché but that's the way it actually is.

I'm in perfect mood lately. No particular reasons or what. It's just, I've been feeling lots of love lately by the people around me. :) I am always eager and looking forward to church every week. I love seeing this bunch of people who love God so much and love each other very much as well. I see Thong Thong, and she makes my heart melt instantly. I see Ah Fan, and I'm so grateful she's my teacher. I don't just see love, but I could feel it overflowing. 

Maybe, we don't have to search or crave for someone special to love us back like how we wish them to love us. Maybe, we have been blinded too long by our wants and have tucked away to the farthest corners of our hearts about the people who deserve our attention and love too. Take a look around and you'll see so much more beauty and love this life has offered to you. Maybe it's time for us to show our gratitude and love for these people.

Thank you to all the people who have loved me and still continue to do so. Thank you to all who care for me and take an interest in my progress. Thank you to all those who have helped me grow. Thank you for being a part of me. But most of all, thank you Lord for your love. All this I've been feeling comes from You. :)

sense over sensibility

I eat a lot lately, more than usual. I think more than usual. I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm happy. But I'm in perfect mood these days and so I eat. And this means I eat all the time. Does it makes sense to you? I think it makes sense to me. Which is what I've always been doing. I try to make sense of the sense that other people would not make sense of it, which makes me want to make more sense of the sense.

I shall come up with a tongue-twister someday. :D

And no, I wasn't making sense to you.

But I think I made sense. :P

I really think I made sense. :)

say no more, but you know best

The human face is close to the most amazing thing we ever have. And one of the most puzzling. Because it may not be what you think you see. You think you sadness, but it tells you otherwise. You think you see joy, but there is a much deeper meaning beneath that smile. You think you see contentment, yet you have no idea how deep the disappointment has hit upon that person. You think you see indifference, but you may not realize how much unspoken concern and hope that the person has bore. You think you see  just another sense of humour that person always has, but you will never know how painful a new wound has been inflicted upon the heart. Or how much more salt that have been sprinkled upon the already severe wound.

You think you know. You think you can read those facial cues. You think you have understood. You think you have hit bull's eye. 

But have you thought otherwise?

What if what you see isn't what you think it is? What if those beautiful smiles you see were hiding something more saddening? What if those laughter you hear were attempts to cover up the tears that force hard to break through those gates? What if the nonchalance you sense isn't that all nonchalant?

Because people are expert at faking expressions. Because people are trained to hide their feelings in the deepest corners of their hearts. Because people know that laughter explains so much better than tears. Because the last thing people want to admit is feeling hurt.

Putting on a strong front, that's what we do.

That's what I do.

Saw a little girl with hair of such curly ends. I really love to have such natural curls. :)

Just another beautiful thing in life. :)

off to the races

Often in life, we are pushed to the edge. Pushed towards a point where you feel you are the only one left behind and that no matter how hard you look about, there seems to be nothing firm enough for you to grab hold and lean your weight against it.

Often in life, we are placed in situations where we have to make decisions that we have not made before. Made to choose between one thing or another, without the guidance and advice that for once, you long to receive from someone else.

Often in life, we are by ourselves. They say they will be with you and walk alongside you. But then, it soon turns into an absolution and not a choice for either of us. This journey ahead, it will soon become a path that is meant for our feet to trudge on, not those of others, for they will find the path that truly belongs to them.

It won't be easy, especially since we have become so accustomed to the accompaniment of another. No, it will not be easy. But who says you will not make it through?

When the time has knocked upon your door, walk away with peace from your stronghold. Leave that comfort zone, for what awaits you out there is what will be your life-changing token. A roller-coaster ride that will leave you breathless.

Like I said, it won't be easy. But dare to travel this path.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

That's what kept me going.

And that's what keeps me going. 

#peaceout