mana water???

31st March 2010

Wednesday

I feel like I'm having a scouts camp right now. You know, like, you won't be able to have a nice, clean, warm bath and ended up feeling all sticky. Yup, that's what I'm feeling right now.

I asked the guards in th evening at around 6pm regarding this water disruption. Because you know what, there was a notice on the noticeboard saying there'll be a water disruption today from 10am-5pm and it was already 6pm!!!

And they told me 10/11pm only ada water. Urgh, screw that man! It's 10pm now!!!

Aku mau mandi la!!!

=/

I feel sooooo sticky!

xoxo

luck has not found its way to me, yet

31st March 2010

Wednesday

I went for 2 interviews today, and yeah, they want permanent staff. Well, it's okay. The first one I went to was a communications company. Okay, to be honest, I couldn't find their office at first you know. Gosh, they were so hidden! It's at the corner beside a backlane man! Imagine that. Gosh. But when I saw the company's name and the wordings below it were advertising, tv, media etc etc, I was sorta more interested though. I mean, right, I'm gonna do communications and this is a company dealing with communications. How nice. :D

I missed one interview which was supposed to be in Cheras. Yeah, I couldn't make it though. Whatever. I went for the one at Raja Chulan though. And I had another hard time locating this building. Well, apparently, the building was just like any other tall and significant from afar, but the problem with it is that, the name of the building was so tiny that I doubt anyone can see it. Geez, it was SMALL! Also, the name was not written at the top of the building or at the front like most well-known buildings do. But instead, the name was at the top right at the main entrance. Gosh! Urgh, I've no words for that.

What's more, it was raining at that time. Geez, what is so wrong with me going out job-hunting? LOL. The weather is so against me. *wink* Okay, yeah, I admit I like it when it rains, but not when I'm doing something real important la wey. Kacau tau? :P

Another theory has been proven today. Always bring a book along with you wherever you go. How so? Man, I spent 2 hours sitting inside McD freezing till I could have lost my senses. LOL. I wanted to bring my book along but what the hell, I thought it would be heavier and hence, I left it at home. I feel so indignant, I was freezing and yet Marc's book was relishing the warmth on my computer desk. Yeah, due to the fact that it was Marc's book, I am now more prejudiced of it! :P

Should have brought it along to freeze with me. Haha.

And worse, my pen just ran outta ink when I was so indulged writing nonsense in my notebook. Oh, I forgot, the theory that I mentioned just now only applies to informative and story books and not empty notebooks! LOL. Anyway, as I was saying, I was writing crap (at least I was doing something!) and then the ink just finished in mid-sentence. CRAP!

Talking about the crap I wrote, I realised I've got 28 books in my to-read book list. :D

And not even one of them have I started with. Haha. Chill la. I'll definitely start my very own book collection. Sounds nice. =)

That was not the worst of all. The worst part for this day is happening right now, this second, this moment.

I can't take my shower. =(

Geez, it's not that I don't wanna shower okay? The water tank's pipe or something broke and then there was this major water disruption for the past few days and now I can't even take my precious little shower. Gosh, all I ask for is just a water supply for 15 minutes. Is that so dificult to fulfill??? Urgh, I feel so sticky right now. =/

I'm gonna wait till 10/11pm to shower. How suck-y that is.

I do appreciate water you know?

xoxo

eww, yucks, gross

30th March 2010

Tuesday

I killed a cockroach this morning.

Heck, I hate cockroaches. I should say, I fcking HATE cockroaches!!!

Eww, they're so gross and so dirty and filthy and yucks and ugly and creepy and leggy(as in many legs, LOL) and small but bulging eyes and long long antennae and sharp protrudings on the legs(especially hind legs) and small tiny mouths that sometimes I don't even know whether they have mouths or not which makes me think that they might bite me and they have wings!!! As in, they CAN fly!

Eww, it scares me most when they fly. What if it flies near me? Or what if it flies towards me? What if it lands on me? Or what if it WANTS to land on me? What if it bites me? What if it lays an egg sac on my head? What if it crawls into my hair? Eww eww eww!!! 

Cockroaches are damn freaking awfully irritably extremely extraordinarily unexceptionally strangely (I'm running outta words at the moment *wink*) G-R-O-S-S!!!

They are so especially when I'm showering and then outta nowhere they appear right next to your feet. EWW!!!

Gosh, luckily my grandparents were out and my dad was still in the room at that time, or else they would hear me screaming from the bathroom. Heck, I screamed alright.

:D

Disgusting.

Cockroaches. Kill. Die.

xoxo

plus plus equal

30th March 2010

Tuesday

Last night, my dad gave me 3 equations. Not mathematical equations nor was it scientific equations. Weird they may sound, but I think this time, he made some sense with those equations too. *wink*

Cheap + Fast = Not good

Cheap + Good = Not fast

Good + Fast = Not cheap

Make any sense to you?

Well, figure it out yourself. =)

xoxo

so unaccomplished

30th March 2010

Tuesday

What a suck-y day, I would say. Partly because I was roaming the streets of Shamelin Perkasa again and also due to the heavy rain at around 3pm, I consulted my mum and she said I might as well go home. Because you know what, the other 2 interviews - supposedly to be 2 interviews only today, that is at Shamelin Perkasa and Jalan Raja Chulan, but then later on I got another call from the one at Megan Avenue so summed up as 3 interviews - were cancelled. Thanks to the rain and myself for everything. LOL. I've no idea what that means though. :D

Anyway, as I said, I only went for one interview and I didn't get that. Well, they wanted a permanent staff and I could only work for 3 months. So, it's okay. I knew I wouldn't make it for Megan Avenue's interview at 3pm. Damn, how could I have promised such stuff? Urgh. Darn! Yeah well, I thought I would just go to the one at Shamelin Perkasa earlier before 2pm and then I would rush to Megan Avenue pulak.

Conclusion : I need a driving licence ASAP!

*wink*

Even writing science reports don't have such honest conclusions. =)

So it started to rain and thank God I just got into the bus on time. Or else, I would be soaking wet again while roaming the streets. That always happen to me ain't it? What, am I born to be a walker? A traveller perhaps? The latter one sounds better huh? Yeah, I dream of becoming a freelance journalist cum traveller. :D

Heck, I'm serious with that okay?

Then went back to Pandan Indah station and took LRT back home again. What a day. I mean, what a suck-y day. I feel so unaccomplished. Gosh! And by the way, I didn't realise I disembarked at Maluri station instead of Pandan Indah station until later on when in fact the ticket I bought was intended to Pandan Indah. Crap.

So tomorrow, 2 interviews. One at Imbi and another at Raja Chulan. Yeah, the one I missed today. It was supposed to be 5pm. Never mind.

Okay, this is weird, but suddenly I feel like buying office wear. Haha! *wink*

Fine, forget about it.

Gosh, I've still gotta go to Pav tomorrow to return those uniforms and submit my resignation letter. Urgh, busy day ahead! =/

Don't even have time to go to Taylor's to settle the registration stuff what's more going shopping. =(

Heck, I've still haven't told my mum I've finally, as in FINALLY decided to go to Taylor's.

Yay to me?

Right, yay to me. LOL

PS. I need job. I need money. I need to work! I've got 3 months ahead of me man!!! :D

xoxo

a pink goodbye

28th March 2010

Sunday

One heckova day it was.

Because today was the last day for me being a Pavilion Padini Concept Store staff.

Yeah, I've finally resigned. (though I've not written my resignation letter yet. LOL)

And at the same time I'm quitting, I'm hunting for another office job here. How busy I am. LOL.

Talking about my last day here. Well, I was still a lil unwell in the morning, though not as bad as yesterday. Thank God. And many people seemed to know that today was my last day here. I totally had no idea how they came to know about it though. Pei Wen even gave me 2 Beryl's chocolate. =) Thanks!!!

Honestly, I didn't really do much today. In fact, what actually occupied me for almost the whole day was just cutting cardboards. LOL.

***

Seriously, I think I've developed a Jacob phobia. Man, I am one helluva serious right now! LOL.

Fong told me this : She was in the office doing some computer work and stuff. And then jacob came in. Basically, he saw her and told her he wanted to borrow a staff of hers. She was kinda surprised, so she asked who. Jacob said that part time girl. Fong asked him why he wanted to borrow her staff. And he said he wanted to ask Oly to help her do make up.

GEEZ! He is totally outta his mind man! I'm freaking afraid of him right now! And seriously, I try my best to avoid him whenever he comes near to PA counter.

Gosh man, he frightens me!!!

Luckily, Fong told him he'd better not and today was my last day and she does not allow him to ask Oly to make up for me. *wink*

I have my protector. :D

Gee, thanks.

***

I guess I'll miss them lots. Gosh, I hadn't even got the chance to tell Edward today was my last day already. Urgh, sucks.

Gos bless me. Let me get another office job as soon as April comes. Amen.

xoxo

unprotected

27th March 2010

Saturday

I was feeling so sick in the morning that I almost thought of not going to work when I was waiting for the train. It got worse when I knew that I was kinda late though. But thank God I wasn't. But then, I don't wanna feel like I'm such an irresponsible person, you know. I don't wanna repeat my past mistakes because it totally sucks. So, what the hell, I convinced myself to work today. And yeah, today was the second last day I'm working at Padini. Can barely believe it huh? Yeah, I can't too myself. I never thought I would quit this job so soon. Hmm, sometimes things just work out differently than how you want them too. Like what people say, man proposes, God disposes. Can't believe it more.

I told Fong. And I am seriously sorry and feel really awful that I'm resigning when they'll be lack of manpower for the following month. Gosh, I'm sorry man. I really don't mean to do so. But yeah, I admit I'm kinda tired already. Exhausted is more like it though. I'm sorry.

Tomorrow will be my last day.

***

And yeah, I've been down with this effing annoying flu for the whole day. Another suck-y working mood.

***

Talking about Earth Hour. Man, I was so freaking excited about the whole Earth Hour thing you know. Uhh, yeah, for no reason actually. Gosh, it's just fun being at a place where they actually take part in this global event. Last year (if not mistaken), I went to Pav with my mum and bro just for the Earth Hour. Well, we did not go in. We were just outside the entrance. And heck, we waited from 8.30pm till 8.45pm and the lights were still not off! Gosh! What a waste.

But this time, being a staff of one of the retail stores in Pav and feeling a part of Pav itself, that feeling of knowing that you will get to witness the even taking place was just awesome! Uhh, well, maybe just for myself though. I dunno about others because besides Fong, none other seemed to be as enthusiastic and excited about the event as I did. LOL. Was I wholly insane or what? :D

Quoted from Zafrul, to be creative we have to be gila sometimes.

Nice one. =)

And yeah, Pav was kinda involved this time. They turned off some levels' lights but not all. I purposely went to the toilet just to see whether Pav turned off the lights or not. LOL. People might say I'm 'mou liew' but heck, that's pure fun man! :D

I saw levels 5 and 6 were a lot dimmer. Quicksilver turned off all their lights but they have this luminous bluish flare at the ceiling. It was beautiful!

And then Padini itself also turned off some lights, which was not what Jacob told us would happen because he said that only the lights on the front display windows will be swtiched off. But heck, I guess he too was in the mood of supporting Earth Hour. Haha. Nice.

***

Right, my house is now undergoing a water disruption which to me, is a really huge disruption! Gosh, how was I supposed to mandi? =/

Man, I could not stand not taking shower after a long day outside. And yeah, I took my shower using icy cold water. And when I was done, I could feel myself freezing and teeth clattering. I am so not exaggerating man. Well, maybe it was due to the increase in my adrenaline which caused to my muscles to undergo contraction longer and more which eventually led to this shivering. CRAP! *wink*

Gosh, guess what was my dinner tonight? Okay, since there's this water disruption, my mum bought me dinner instead, saying that it won't be so troublesome later on that I've to wash the plates and stuff. Uhh, right, but I've also gotta wash the plates after I've finished the food you bought for me right? LOL.

(the dishes are pilled up in the sink though)

Man, my mum said she'll just buy me any soupy noodles but I did not expect her to buy me herbal soup. LOL!!! Gosh, I never fancy all these stuff man. Like, those 'kei zi' and stuff. I ate that before and I remembered I didn't like it. :D

But, what the hell, she bought it, I'm sick, I drank the soup. Hmm, maybe it wasn't that bad though.

Thanks.

***

I've got no idea how to write a resignation letter and a resume. Will find out after tomorrow. And I need an office job FAST. Gosh!

xoxo

when darkness rules

27th March 2010

Saturday

In full support of Earth Hour, people.

Switch off all your electirc appliances tonight from 8.30pm-9.30pm.

Save Mother Earth.

She's at your mercy.

=)

xoxo

and it's only the beginning

26th March 2010

Friday

I went to Taylor's just now and enquired about whether I could extend my scholarship offer. And yes, it's valid until before the commencement date of the course that I'll be taking. So, yeah, it'll be July intake.

But it's not that I'm 100% going to Taylor's now. Yeah, people say Taylor's is good, I should go to Taylor's, but has anyone actually understand what I want? Oh crap. I know parents want the best for their children. But, urgh, I dunno. It's so frustrating man.

My dad's all in on Taylor's and my mum as well. Because Joyce says this, Joyce says that. (Joyce's her colleague) And hell yeah I do understand and fully realise that Taylor's is one helluva a good uni college. But I am interested in the ADP. I am interested in doing double major. I am interested in communications + psychology. I am interested with SEGi. I am interested with location. I am interested with almost everything at SEGi. But mostly, it's still the course. And honestly, I like the idea of staying in SEGi's hostel.

Yeah, what the hell, SEGi is not as estalished as Taylor's and on and on and on.

You guys are like, forcing me to go Taylor's but then telling me that it's up to me and you're not threatening me or what. But you sound like you ARE threatening me okay?

You guys just tell me this and that and expect me to obey every freaking thing you say. It's not that I don't wanna obey. Hey, come on man! I'm at the brink of carving my future here!

Do you know what panic is like?

Do you know what fear is like?

Do you know what worrisome is like?

Do you know what anxiety is like?

Do you know what insecurity is like?

FML man!

You think that I'm just being stubborn and oblivious to whatever you are telling me. You think that I'm childish and immature and unreasonable and insensible. How am I supposed to feel man? I have to decide for my future here! I am scared okay? There, I said it!

I like SEGi's course, but then you tell me what if the lecturers are not American lecturers.

Then thinking of Taylor's, I might regret not going to SEGi. And if I go to SEGi, then it's about the lecturers.

I know I don't make any freaking sense here cause I am freaking confused right now.

Hey, I am worried and scared for my own future as well okay? Don't think that I'm fooling around.

You dunno me well then.

It's easier said than done. I could not have agreed more. You all are the ones who tell me these stuff but I'm the one who's gonna study for it. And you said what's so difficult about studying as I've been studying for more than 10 years. Sucks man!

I am pressured. I feel like you all are pushing me to do something that I am still completely unsure about. And then when I say that I prefer otherwise, you think that I'm not making sense. So why tell me you're giving me choice then? It's so difficult okay? You have no fcking idea about this whole making-decision thing!

Don't be nice to me for one second and then the next second you're telling me it's up to you and of you regret later on, don't blame me this kinda stuff.

I've had enough of shit lately.

***

And at the end of the day, you said that I'm going for July's intake. Fine man. Whatever.

***

I need to get a job FAST. As in, another job. An office job or clerk or something simple that's in office. LOL. Well, like I said, since I'll be going for the July intake, I'll get an office job. Whatever you wanna call it. I just started searching though. God show me the way. I've had enough for today. Don't give me anymore.

I'm down for the night.

xoxo

some wise words said

26th March 2010

Friday

I met friend of my dad's today. Uhh, yeah, it's kinda awward though. But, well, I guess God really blessed me and what with my dad now supporting my choice of taking mass comm. And well, it's nice also that he talked with this friend of his and then arranged a 'meeting' with him so that he could advise me on mass comm. Well, thanks.

Gee, seems like I've gotta go through some agonizing moments before I got approval from him.

But, still thanks though.

So he drove me to Bangsar area and he told me we were gonna meet his friend at a mamak stall, which supposedly was to be at Coffee Bean, if I'm not mistaken. Uhh, Coffee Bean? That is something.

And when he told me 'mamak', automatically those road side dilapidated-looking mamak stalls struck me. But then, it turned out to be some kinda high class mamak. LOL. Well, it did look somewhat different okay?

I was thinking to myself, some kinda high class mamak this is. *wink*

And then I saw him waving to someone when we entered. I was like, looking ahead, trying to spot some neat, prim and proper looking businessman or some kind. And I saw a young man, donned in a white long sleeve shirt and with his hair neatly combed back. So I thought that was his friend.

But then, he stopped at 2 tables before that prim and proper guy and came face to face with another guy. He shook hands with him and I shook hands with him too.

I did not expect him to look like this though. Well, I didn't really expect anything also. This guy, his name is Zafrul. He's a CEO and Creative Advisor of an advertising company I think. Then he asked me what I like. I told him I like to write. What kind of stuff that I like to write? Random stuff.
Well, I write random stuff right? And he asked me why I like writing. I told him I had a passion for reading and then I've been blogging and that influenced me or something like that, you know.
Then he started explaining to me about mass communications and the different aspects of it. And since he himself is an art director if I'm not mistaken, he focused more on advertising.

And mostly, it was my dad who asked the questions. Because you know why, I thought this meeting would be in an office or something so I could request to have a little time alone just so I could consult him on mass comm. But never mind. So he asked and I listened. And basically, hmm, I think he's more interested in the salary and stuff like that you know? Never mind. I'll just bear with it. But thanks still the same. He's a really nice guy.

No need for elaborations on what he talked to me about. But there's something about him that assured my doubts though. At the end of the conversation, he still said, it's what you really want. *pointing a finger to his chest*
Well, yeah, he told me about advertising and since I don't do arts, I could go into copywriting. Gosh, anyone told you I dislike arts? I mean, I like to see arts and appreciating them but asking me to draw and paint and whatnot is one heckuva nightmare man! :D
Gosh, my arts suck to the max okay? I never enjoy drawing and painting, well, apart from real painting as in, painting walls and stuff like that you know. *wink*

Though he kept telling me about copywriting and art director stuff, he still said it's what you want. He did say journalism wasn't that good if compared to copywriting if I were to look at it in salary-wise. But then, hmm, I dunno. Copywriting sounds really interesting, and I think I might like it as well. And then I asked him about feature writing. And then later on, he even said about travelling journalist or something. Like, those who travel around the world and seems like a freelance journalist you know. And some even go to war zones. And those are the highly paid ones. Man, I would love to do that. I guess journalism is still my thing though? Gosh, I dunno! Who knows? Just let God guide me. For God is my shepherd. =)

But one thing that still keeps me truly baffled right now is SEGi or Taylor's. Yeah, Taylor's is a really established university college and everyone's advising me to go to Taylor's. But, urgh, gosh, I like SEGi's course actually. And if I were to go to Taylor's, my dad wants me to go overseas, as in, Australia's RMIT, after 1 year of foundation locally. And to be perfectly honest, I don't think I'm ready yet. You can ask me to stay at SEGi's hostel or wherever but not home. But gosh, don't expect so much from me yet. I'm still not ready! Not ready for Australia just yet! =/

And also, talking about the certs, this Zafrul frankly told me that an Aussie cert would be better than a US one because "Australia uses English English while US is American English". That's exactly what he told me okay? I'm just quoting it. :D
So, there you go.
I'm so confused right now.
=(

Making decisions is real hard. Now I realise that man.

God guide me the way.

I'll be going out again later on to Taylor's and appeal for an extension for the scholarship. And hopefully, I could get SEGi's scholarship. I still like communications + psychology. Because that Zafrul said that it's better if I take communications in copywriting as a major and then do a minor in Graphic Design. And so my dad is so into that right now. I cannot imagine myself doing Graphic Design man.
This is hard. =/

God help me please. Let me get SEGi's scholarship please.
I don't think I'll have any peaceful days and nights before this whole college thing is settled.

I'm starting to worry man. Panic. Fear. Anxiety. I'm worried if Taylor's scholarship offer ends and I still couldn't get SEGi's scholarship and then I seriously dunno what am I supposed to do. For the first time in my seventeen years of living, I've never felt so worried and so insecure. I feel like I'm standing on the edge, you know, trying my very best not to fall off. And it's not easy, I assure you of that.

***

xoxo

i plan, but they always never work out, dude

25th March 2010

Thursday

Yes, I've been roaming the streets of KL again. This time, under the scorching incredibly hot sun. It was as though the sun has never shone in a decade before and today, it's just the day for it to release its glimmer. Gosh, more than a glimmer man! It was HOT!

I used to wonder what would happen to us if we float near to the sun and then fall into the core of the sun, you know. Okay, I don't think I wanna know about it anymore now. :D

Man, it's been seriously hot these past few days! What is with the weather man? Seriously people, 2012 might be real. Well, at least the weather is showing already.

How ironic. Foreigners love the weather in Malaysia but we would give anything to have a winter season here.

I totally agree with that man! Back-ups, anyone? :D

So, yeah, I was under the sun. Again.

Gosh, I was rushing outta the house okay? My grandparents were going out and I didn't even know. I mean, I heard the sound, as in, my grandpa's belt sound? LOL. Whatever. And I didn't ask them, assuming that they weren't going out yet. So I was like, rushing outta the house and didn't even take an umbrella. Urgh. Served me right ain't it?

Whatever. I don't make plans.

Well, I do actually. But they just don't work out. =)

So met up with Jason at 12pm at McD. As in, the Bukit Bintang McD. I feel like I'm such a nice person. Haha! I teman him makan lunch wey! :D

Okay, boasting is not good. Well, I'm not though. I'm just sharing. Well, I still got a treat by accompanying people for lunch though. Sounds terrific huh? It was! :D

And you know what? I dunno whether he did it on purpose or what. The seat he chose and where he was seating faced exactly the plasma TV. And I didn't even realise that until later on when we were talking and I was replying him, and he pulak looking past me. I turned around and there it was, the plasma TV.

Well, it's not the plasma TV that interested me though. It was ESPN dude! It was a review of all the goals for the past week's matches man!

Gosh, I was like, "Eh, you purposely choose this place cause you can see la?"

"You come over here and sit lo."

Right, and after that, there was a review of Man U vs Liverpool's match as well. Urgh.

Never mind, seeing Torres makes me happy too. :D

Wee~~~

Gosh, I love Torres! =)

And you know what this spoiler said? "The credit goes to the passer, not Torres."

Excuse me?

If he didn't shoot head-on also there won't be a goal for Liverpool what! :D

Cause I dunno which player already - maybe Kuyt - kicked the ball to the penalty box and then Torres head-in.

So, yeah yeah yeah, passer gets the credits. Whatever. :D

I thought of going for a movie later on. But when I checked at the cinema, the next screening for Alice In Wonderland 3D is at 5.30pm!

I was like, what the hell man! I wanted to watch it so badly and now, it's not available.

Get this, when I'm unavailable, the movie's available, when I'm available, the movie is unavailable. Screw it! *wink*

That's the consequence of not planning.

But, what the hell, this is spontaniety man. And I love being spontaneous. Duh, that's life. :D

"You didn't check the time when you left the house just now?"

"No."

*talking about the screening time*

And since 2D is at 2+ and also other movies are not that appealing, so ended up not watching movie. Urgh. How I wanted to watch man. But never mind. More fun awaits me. =)

So I was on my own then, roaming Pav pulak. =)

And I got 2 movies for my bros. Hopefully they will like them man. *wink*

And around 1+, I was off.

Off, as in, leaving Pav and adjourning to somewhere else. Come on, you can't expect me to walk the whole Pav again man! I've been walking the whole Pav for every of my working day!

So I board the monorail, dropped off at Chow Kit (I wasn't up to no good okay?) and back to roaming the streets of KL again. Just that, this time is the streets of Chow Kit. Gosh! I totally can't believe that myself man!

Yeah, I googled before I left home and PWTC seems like in between of both Titiwangsa and Chow Kit station. But then, Titiwangsa seemed kinda further. So be it Chow Kit then. Uhh, yeah, there was some slight problem though. I know how to take monorail, I know that I should get down at Chow Kit station but what I didn't know is that, the direction to PWTC from Chow Kit station. LOL. Seriously man! I was like, so effing blur as to where I was supposed to go next. And realising Chow Kit is infamous for you-know-what, I felt more lost. Haha! But what the hell. No worries at all. God is with me. =)

And no, I didn't find my way to any of the brothels there, mind you. Thank God for that. *wink*

So all I need to look out for is Legend Hotel. Yeah, thank God Legend Hotel is as smart as other hotels to put its name at the top of the building. Thank God for that man. Cause when I was nearing the station, I kept trying to spot Legend Hotel but I don't see it. And that was why I felt so damn lost when I just got out from the station.

And I kinda started praying for me to spot Legend Hotel. Haha. And thank God, I found it.

So there you go. One of the amateur traveller's tip. *wink*

Spot the tallest yet nearest building to your destination and you've won half the battle. :D

(macam betul je. haha)

Gosh, that heat was unbearable man! How unlucky of me to wear slippers and my skin was exposed to the sunlight. =/

I'm gonna get sunburn man! Urgh! I'm gonna be tanned again. Shit man!

First floor, was so not a good impression for  what a book fair should look like. Seriously man. There were all kinds of events and games and I dunno what else but one thing was for sure, it was one helluva commotion man! Urgh. Honestly, it was more like a fun fair than a book fair man. Gosh!

And all the booths on the first floor were malay publications. And for one instant, I thought making this trip here was a waste. Then I looked again at the plan which showed the location of each booth. And thank God, I was looking at the last page and on that last page itself was the hall where all English publications were. Gosh, I was saved! *wink*

Upon reaching the next level, I felt tremendously better. My impression of this book fair changed. Well, that's what a book fair should look like okay? Quiet and everything in order. Not people running here and there, shouting high and low to attract people to visit their booths. Gosh, that is a fun fair! Not a book fair man. Spare that will you?

I was instantly glad I came today. Man, those books were awesome! You know what those books were? Most of them are references books that college/uni students use man. Thank God I came. :D

I saw books on psychology and communications and media and languages and all I was hoping is that I could buy them. :D

Seriously man! I would be more than excited to start reading on these books though I still have no idea how am I gonna read them. I mean, yeah, I know how to read a book. But the thing is, there's a way how you read it. As in, spot the important points and keywords and not just read every single page from cover to cover man. That is not college/uni studying. Well, at least that's what most people say though. Man, I can't wait to start my college life. And studying will be totally different. =)

God bless me.

Before going there, I thought I would have to waste my time away just like that. Cause it was still early when I left Pav and I thought I won't take up so much time at PWTC and I didn't wanna go home so early yet. But then, it turned out that I did not have enough time there. :D

Gosh, being flooded with books is a pleasure man. I can really lose track of time being near so many great books. =)

And I did though. :D

So I got 4 books. But none of them are for myself. Haha. Never mind. I might go again tomorrow. =)

So 1 book for my bro, which I myself quite like it as well. Not fiction but it's all on myths and stuff like that, you know. I don't reckon he'll like fiction though. Gosh, he wants to become a scientist man! Facts will suit him just right.

And 2 books on spirituality. Yeah, you got it right. 1 for my mum and the pther for Sis Yam, though I'm not so close with her. Dude, my mum's the one close with her la. Uhh, not right for me to talk about them here. Sorry. :D

Anyway, I got them 2 books. The one I bought for my mum was very cheap while the one I bought later on for her friend was kinda expensive, which actually makes me feel very guilty. You know, like, what if it hurts or offends my mum that I buy her a real cheap book while I buy an outsider a moe expensive one. Hmm, so I thought, just let her choose la. Whichever she wants. But she's already so close with her friend what, so maybe they could just share the books? =)

Ala, up to them je la.

And 1 book for a friend of mine. It's on football. Uhh, yeah, all football epic moments. LOL. Not really la. It's all football pictures. There was one book all on Arsenal. I thought of buying that. But that book is just full of records and stuff you know. I dunno if he'll like it or not. So I looked around and found this book. Well, I was still very much indecisive. I can't decide which to buy. Cause, basically, he's a true Arsenal fan (I think so) but that book is merely on Arsenal's records and not much on the non-records. LOL. And also I thought I could find a book merely on Henry or Zidane but there was none. Messi ada la. LOL.

So ended up buying this 1000 football pictures book. Nice one. I dunno how to pass it to him yet. Well, I'll figure a way out.

I didn't know why I bought it for him only. I mean, when I saw that Arsenal book, I just thought of buying for him. LOL. I meant nothing else dude! *wink* Well, maybe it was because it was on Arsenal. If it was on Liverpool I would surely buy for myself man! Haha.

Well, he's a real nice friend. Just that, sometimes he's a nuisance. *wink* And he still owes me Subway! Gosh!

Hmm, maybe I'll get more books tomorrow. Gosh, I ran outta money buying these books man! Seriously! I never thought I would use up all my money. Oh crap. Right, my weakness. Going to book fair has its downside on the purchaser. :D (that's me)

Gosh, I used up to 100 bucks already man just for today! Yeah, just on 4 books and 2 discs. Urgh, screw it. Haha. Whatever. Books are good. VCDs are good too. =)

***

I'd rather spend on others than spend on myself. I'd feel great! =)

So basically, there's just these 3 things I would spend on, music, movies and books. Hmm, well, music not that much though. I download all my songs from the net anyway. So, maybe clothes then. Yeah well, I still haven't go shopping for myself yet. LOL. But no shopping for this month. I spent so much already today! :D

Never mind, another week and then it's April already. And hopefully my scholarship will be approved by next week and then everything will be settled and then I can go shopping for myself with peace and joy. =)

***

Okay, I still haven't finish reading John Grisham's The Chamber. And I've gotta return this book next week,. Oh crap! I really gotta finish it by this week. Hmm, still got a few more chapters to go!!!

And also, both the books that Marc lent me, I've not even touched it yet. Gosh, so sorry dude. Gimme some time. I've been kinda busy lately. And trust me, I will finish reading them man. And be prepared, I'll ask for more! *wink*

Okay, Imma off to The Chmaber! Gosh, they're gonna gas Sam! (i'm talking bout the story. LOL)

Gossip Girl. 3 words, 8 letters, say it, and I'm yours. <3

*wrong channel* :D

xoxo

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and i thought i was forgotten

23rd March 2010

Tuesday

Why do I seem to be always roaming the streets especially at the most peculiar hour?

Gosh!

Yeah? It happened like, so many timea already? Urgh.

***

I forgot to mention that I also met another of my CP-mate at Surfine yesterday.

Ah liew!!! :D

Gosh, meeting him reminded me of old times. Those times when I was at CP. Nice ones.

And suddenly I feel like I'm missing them a lot. Gosh. I like them man!

Hmm, I was just wondering if there could be a major reunion for the first batch of CP-ians '05.

Just the first batch man. We were the first batch. =)

UG still surviving?

xoxo

newbies can be buddies too

22nd March 2010

Monday

So it wasn't 6 hours as I thought it would be. LOL. Never mind. Anyway, 3 hours was more than enough already okay? :D

And God blessed me, I wasn't alone. Guess who else this time?

Wei Teng!

I mean, it's been so long. Uhh, maybe not, I saw her with Yao Kuan and Yi Lynn at Padini a month back or so? LOL. But it was good to see her again though. This time, more clearly and she has really changed a lot too. She had bracers on and had her hair dyed! Hmm. :D

And she was wearing glasses? LOL.

Then also, in the theroy class, I sat in between 2 ladies; 1 Chinese and the other I wasn't sure if she's African or what. Because she had her hair plaited. You know, like those Africans' hair. Really plaited man. And coloured. LOL.

And I made friend with this chinese girl. Her name is Stephy. Okay, I can't find her profile in Facebook! I wanna add her la wey! =/

She's really nice. I mean, we chatted and I accompanied her for lunch as well. And we sat together again after the half-hour break.

She told me she started working at the age of 14. I was sorta surprised also when she told me. And then, yeah, she explained that her family background wasn't that good. Same here. And she's worked many kinds of jobs already I guess. She said she used to be a TARC design student but then also due to family background, she had to stop studying and come out to work. She worked as a cosmetician for 2 years and then quitted. Now, she's working at a bridal shop. Nice. Reminds me of my cousin sis though. =)

And then we were talking about taking driving licence as well as buying a car after that. And you know what? had she not mentioned about buying second hand cars instead of new ones, I would not have thought of that myself man! My lifesaver! :D

Seriously, she's amazing. One helluva survivor man! I like her.

I guess we share some common things too? Family background? Thinking? Nice.

I admire this kinda people.

And she's only 20 okay? Just 2 years elder than me! =)

Hopefully we could go for test together. =)

***

Yay! I'm excited now! Imma waiting for my L! :D

I will soon learn to drive! I don't care whether it'll be tough or what. Imma gonna learn it. Yay!!! =)

xoxo

not my thing, ya know?

22nd March 2010

Monday

I was standing at the selling floor, and Jacob walked past. He saw me, and I saw him. And I smiled politely to him. Then knowing that I admitted I did not put any make-up, I turned to the other side, pretending to be on-looking a customer who was browsing through the clothes.

And outta nowhere, Jacob appeard in front of me. He scrutinised me as though he just caught me doing something againt the rules, which is not true at all.

He scrutinised further. Realising that it is always better to come clean than to let the other party find out themselves, I said, "I don't have make-up set."

He walked around me without me facing him. "So how? What's the solution?"

"I'll buy."

"Today only ah."

"Okay."

So there you go.

Gosh, he mentioned about grooming and that for ladies, we have to at least touch-up on 3 utmost things, that is, eyeshadow/eyeliner, blusher and lipstick. What the hell man.

Doing make-up is so not my thing. I don't do make-ups, not even when I went for graduation. Duh?

I like it natural. I mean, come on, does doing make-up increases the sales? Not that I am aware of though.

Screw it.

Hell am I gonna buy make-up set.

Firstly, I don't do make-ups. As I said, natural is best. And my mum always tells me not to do make-ups because once you start it, you'll always have to do make-ups. It's not an addiction or what but it's the aftermath though. You see, if you start doing make-ups, your appearance will somewhat look like a pretence? LOL. I dunno. I just think that, you'll always have to depend on make-ups to look better. And if you don't do make-ups, then your face will look pale and unhealthy-like? I think so. That's what my mum says I guess. :D

So, no make-ups man!

Secondly, I don't know how to do make-ups. Not that I wanna do it anyway. I went to school, and what's the point of learning how to do make-ups? I mean, they don't teach that in school though. And also, I'm not planning to become a cosmetician or whatever right? It's so not my thing. :D

Thirdly, I do actually put on lipbalm! That is a fact! :D

Lipbalm is way healthier anyway. It prevents dryness of the lips. Nice huh? =)

And also, I have lipgloss. It does give a shiny effect anyway. So I can use that also right? Man, I bought that lipgloss just for my graduation! Imagine that. I used lipbalm all the time what. :D

Anyway, urgh, I was pissed that I got caught not wearing make-ups. Duh?

It is so not my policy to wear make-ups. Don't make me man. I dunno if I would look like a baboon if I wear make-ups. If not baboon, then a monkey. :P

***

Oh, and I got a surprise visit yesterday! :D

I saw Ken! Yeah, Ken. LOL.

I talked with him for awhile and he asked me about my college preparations and stufff like that.

Nice meeting him though. =)

***

And my 6 hours theory endurance will begin shortly. OMG. Urgh. Yeah, that driving thing. What the hell man. 5 hours was more than enough. And now I've gotta do another 6 hours. Just how cool can that be man.

Wish me well. I hope I won't get 'mouldy' sitting there just listening to whatever that I should be listening. Uhh, wrong word, it's not 'should', it should be 'had to'. Yeah, I had to listen to those teachings(crap) before I can actually learn how to drive. Urgh, how I wish I can drive already. God help me.

Yeah, patience is all I need.

I'm trying my best though. :D

***

And lastly, I am still disheartened (demotivated *wink*) on last night's match. As in, THE match, you know.

Yeah, Man U won the game. I don't wanna say Liverpool lost is because it sounds so, no good. =)

This is what you call self-assurance, knowing fully well that it's just self-deception. Haha. Fine, whatever.

Liverpool to the max! <3

***

6 hours. I'm not looking forward to it though. I only got 3 more days to settle my scholarship stuff man! Dammit! And I'm not done yet!!! Urgh!

God help me please. =/

xoxo

the clash

21st March 2010

Sunday

Get lost! Don't talk to me if all that you're gonna talk about is the match. I mean it!!!

Gosh, do I sound harsh to you? I feel that too even to myself. LOL.

But hey, we're talking about the match man. Yeah, it's THE match! THE MATCH!!!

Which match? This is the match!

VS

Yeah, that's right. The clash of the titans : Manchester United vs Liverpool.

Oh come on, they've always been arched rivals right? Like, since I dunno when? LOL. But who cares? I am so on Liverpool's side man! *wink*

Gosh, screw it man! Man U won the match?! What the hell man? Oh fck! :P

Yeah well, Liverpool has not been performing their best this season and they're already outta top 4. (Fck!) :D

And the only thing that matters anymore for the time being is for them to win this match with Man U. If they beat Man U even though they've fallen outta the top spots, then it still is a glory man!

Uhh, yeah, I know. I know I shouldn't have this kinda mindset but, screw it! I am so enough of this! :D

Just give me a break to spare myself from the should-be mindset.

Liverpool Liverpool Liverpool!!! <3

Gosh, feels like it's been a really really really long time since I was so crazy over football. Yeah, since the start of my job at Pav here, I've really got no time for my used-to-be pastimes, that is, watching movie series and FOOTBALL! Oh no, cannot, I really gotta get back to my old self. Football man! Football is life! Football is the world language! (Okay, why didn't anyone think of this? This could replace English man!) :D

Urgh! 2-1 to Man U? Screw it!

I don't care! I still freaking love Liverpool! <3

I'm not being s spoil sport though. It's just that, I feel like lashing out at those who still wanna hurt my feelings after my favourite team's downfall. ='(

I really felt like crying you know. I'm like, serious? Fine, not that you will believe I would really cry for a football match that happened millions of miles away from me now. Whatever.

The reason Man U's pictures are posted is outta courtesy. I'm still a nice person okay? Though I'm kinda anti-Man U right now. :D

And of course, more pictures of Liverpool FC than Man U! That is for sure! :D

This is not discrimination okay? Nor is it biased or prejudice. So not!

Lemme clarify with you what is discrimination.

Right. Discrimination is when Man U wins and Liverpool is the one that gets the most insults and really awful comments but if reversed, Man U will be the one giving lots of reasons which I think are just plain excuses and people (apart from Liverpool supporters) will not be proud of their success. Right right right???

Okay, fine, I don't mean to offend any party here. I apologise.

I take it that my apology has been accepted though. :D

Don't insult Liverpool anymore for it hurts me deeply. ='(

You'll Never Walk Alone.

Liverpool. Anfield. Torres. <3

x0x0

imma hoping, ya know?

21st March 2010

Sunday

Hmm, I am so so so troubled with all the college and scholarship stuff man. =/

Hopefully everything works out well though.

Imma off to work in half an hour's time. Till then.

xoxo

first stage - passed

20th March 2010

Saturday

Well, with not that great an enthusiasm, I am here to officially announce to I-dunno-who-will-bother that I have passed my undang test.

(LOL?)

Well, it's supposed to be full of excitement and enthusiasm right? But, what the hell. It's a couple of days back's news and, well, I don't think I am that thrilled compared to a couple of days back.

Hmm, okay, I'm not making sense again now. Fine, ignore me.

And I still like the number 42. =)

PS. It's 49/50. *wink*

xoxo

dangling in mid-blog

19th March 2010

Friday

Okay, I'm not gonna talk about today yet, but it'll be about yesterday. =)

*listening to Kelly Clarkson's All I Ever Wanted on hitz.fm for the first time*

So yesterday, I was out for almost the whole day. Yeah, again. LOL. Come on, it was not that I went out to have fun or whatever. I was on a mission man! :P Well, a college mission. =) Sounds cool huh?

So my mum picked me up and then we headed to I dunno where already. LOL. Uhh, it was further than Bukit Jalil. Hmm. Oh! I got it! It was Puchong. Yeah, because I remember my mum telling me about the route that linked from Bukit Jalil to Puchong. Hmm, I think that's the one though. :D

And then we joined Sister Yam for lunch, as 'requested' by my mum. LOL.

And they were talking and talking and talking non-stop man. OMG. I felt so invisible. Haha. Who cares? Luckily there was Astro! =) Though it was I'm not so sure whether it was Discovery Channel or some sort, at least I was still occupied. And also!!! I saw this old couple.

Okay, that's the pair. At first, while my mum and Sis Yam were busy eating AND talking, I caught sight of this old lady. She was selling the economic rice you know? It's not literal translation okay? LOL. I think so. I mean, I saw stores with names like 'economic rice' or something also what. :D

Anyway, this lady. There was something about her that sorta fascinated me. I think I admire her. She was so hardworking man. Well, that was obvious isn't it? Yeah, maybe it could be family background or something that she had to do this business but the thing was, she seemed to be smiling all the time. And you know what my mum said?

Me : The 2 old folks are so hardworking.

Mum : Yeah, really.

Me : And that auntie's always smiling.

Mum : Maybe it's her denches? So she had no choice also la.

LOL!!!

So form my point of view, the auntie takes care of the front part, as in, the selling part, while the uncle would do the cooking. Cool huh? And they were so loving. I mean, at this age man! I dunno. I just have this kinda impression that old folks in foreign countries like America or UK or some place similar only will be so loving. But I have never thought that there's still couples like that here in Malaysia. Okay, am I making sense? Gosh. I am not making sense. Can't blame me though. I've used up all my common senses in my undang test this morning. :P

The reason I say they're loving is because, I saw them sharing food. LOL. Okay, maybe this does not mean anything big but to me, it is something HUGE! A big deal man!

This was it, the uncle was eating, as in, having his lunch. (it was lunch time btw) But the auntie wasn't eating yet. She was actually peeling onions. And then there were people wanting to buy economic rice occasionally. And since the auntie was busy peeling onions and she was already seated with that basket of onions on her laps, the uncle instinctively walked over to serve the customers. And at one point, the auntie ate a little of the uncle's food. That's nice ain't it? Oh come on! Say it's nice! :D

I stealthily snapped that picture of them. Imma paparazzi! :P

Photojournalism babe!

***

So after lunch, we went to SEGi! Yay! Gosh, I seem to like going there a lot huh? Haha. I wish I could study there. OMG. Please please please God. Let my scholarship application be approved. =)

I promise I will work hard. Real hard!

I submitted my scholarship application form to Michelle. Yeah, that girl who assisted me when I first went there. Gosh, can she be my senior cum mentor? Or should it be the other way round? Mentor cum senior? LOL. Whichever la. Can you lend me your notes next time? :P

She said my results were not bad. Thanks. =)

And she asked me if I would wanna change my mind and do medic instead. I was like, OMG, no way! :D

Yeah, well, many people, in fact, I guess everyone? , feels that it's a waste I do not wanna continue my studies in the science field but diverting to the arts field. Hello? It's so not a waste okay? My mum asked me about it too. But I know she was just asking and will not think that taking mass comm is a waste of my science skills. LOL. Have I any science skills btw? *shrug*

My mum told me, how can studying more be a waste? As long as you study something, it won't be a waste. Wanna get to know my mentor? =)

Nice huh?

Yeah, well, sometimes even words of wisdom from mentors could sound like naggings huh? :P

Praying praying praying hard, real hard that I would get SEGi's scholarship before Taylor's scholarship offer expires. Do you call that expires? LOL.

***

And yet another day of car-travelling? LOL. That's for me though. Haha. Takkan want my mum to fetch me home first and then drive all the way to USJ and Subang Jaya and wherever it was right? So I just tagged along. The word 'tag along' sounds like it's used on dogs. :D No offence!!! Haha.

And I even witnessed my mum doing sales for the first time. LOL. As in, approaching printing companies and advertising companies, to propose Design Line's papers. OMG. She looked, and SOUNDED so PRO. LOL.

***

PS. This should be yesterday's(Friday) post, but due to some emotional breakdown (LOL), I discontinued blogging this post and now I have no idea what am I supposed to do with this. LOL. What the hell. It's hanging man! :D

xoxo