graduation fever

23th October 2009
Friday

Omg
To be dead honest
I'm seriously very very very excited bout tomorrow's GRADUATION!!!
Omg
I mean, we're gonna have a graduation!!!
Man, should I be so damn excited?
I dunno
Just, feel kinda different
And definitely special
xD

But
Hmm
Not to be negative or what
Just, maybe there's something that makes this graduation not how I wanted it to be
='(

Nway
Forget it
Just wished it would be different than it is now

Went to leisure mall just now
Omg
Saw teck chee again
Seriously, he's kinda handsome wan la
That naughty guy look
xD

Not that I'm interested, come on
We're like, friends
And
Well
Not into this kinda mood now
='(

So
Hope everything turns out well tomorrow
God bless
Everything will be fine
And nobody will get chased away or what
And no scoldings
No accidents, like dunno which teacher said it
All fun and joy!!!
Hee
And pictures
More pictures!!!
Wee~~~
xD


I'm trying to be happy right now!!!
=)



Graduation, here we come!!!~~~


claira.xoxo

a neverending memory

23th October 2009
Friday

It's been a reall hard day man
I mean, I tried so hard to resist my tears from falling
And trying not to think bout it
But then
When Thirah and Mat were like, so-called arguing
She mentioned sakit hati
Man, that word was like
Omg
Pierced through my heart man
Man, I almost cried
='(

And then Mat was like, shh, jgn ckp
Hmm
Thanks man

Khye vern noticed I was somewhat quiet you know
Hmm
Luckily she just thought that I was having my mentrual pain

Had no mood at all to do anything man
Even the maths workbook I did was like, so many mistakes
What the hell man
Why is this happening to me?
Really?

Hmm
Sometimes it's just so damn difficult
I thought I could handle it man

And then when I told Nigel and Luen bout it
I could tell you I almost cried
Again
I'm sorree

I thought I could be strong enough
Man, I don't think I'm that strong though
Hmm

It's diffcult I admit
Seriously
But I'll still try

I totally understand what you said
I know it will have to end someday later on
But I seriously didn't expect it to be so damn soon you know
='(

Hmm
I dunno what else to say
Nothing I say will bring you back now nway
You'll just stay with me as a memory
A damn nice one
I just wish it would last longer
Hmm

xoxo just for you babe



claira.xoxo

xoxo for you babe

22th October 2009

Thursday

My start of a new blog

And I thought it would be a nice one

You know, a happy intro

But then

It doesn't seem to be so huh

5th October 2009

Official

Man, I was happy with the times we had

I mean, even though it was just texting

And the day we went out

That was so cool

I was so damn happy that day

Dunno bout you

But I admit I was totally crazee over you

You convinced me

Man, why does it feel so like deja vu

Hmm

You got me into it

Who would have thought things would turn out this way

Hmm

22th October 2009

Official

It was all over

You couldn't imagine how hurt it was

For 4 days straight

Not even a word man

And you never replied my messages

And I was just thinking you were mad at me

I'm not blaming you for anything

I mean, relationships are such right

They just never work out the way we want them to

But I'd never thought it would be this

I don't wanna blame you for anything

But I just can't help it you know

It's so difficult

Everything you said before

And when you convinced me that we could avoid it

Hmm

It's difficult not to put the blame on you

For now

I know it's not entirely your fault

I just wish that you wouldn't make this decision

I don't ask anything from you man

Seriously

It really hurts a lot

That message really sent my tears rolling down

I totally lost my appetite for dinner

Man, and ice-cream doesn't help at all

I mean, people usually say when you're sad, ice-cream makes you feel better?

Something like that?

But, I felt nothing?

I mean, I guess I was all numb already

Felt like that so many times before

I'm all numb I guess

='(

Been a long time since I used that emoticon

I still like you

I really do

Even if it sounds totally crazee

I keep telling myself it would all be okay

I know it will

It just takes time right?

Like you said

Yeah

I will just, you know, embrace everything

And put on a smile

As best I could

I will

We're still friends

Just, wished we could be more than just friends

You make me fall in love with

But now you left me hanging there

But still

xoxo

Just for you, babe

claira.xoxo